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on Sun 23 May 10, 1:06 PM to rachel1's blog.
Why after such a good day yesterday, mentally wise, did those kids from the next street decide they were going to start pulling down branches to free frisby rather than ask. inside a huge row developed and i just got my coat and started walking. Nowhere in particular with tears running down my face. not a person stopped to ask if i was ok as i was leaning over a bridge. i was calling Goldie as if i was expecting him to come running up to me as he used to. After some time i noticed that the buses had the night bus numbers up. Still i walked and cried. i finished up outside the animal hospital at Bush. i laid on the grass infront of the small animal side for 2 or 3 hours just crying and thinking of the times i had taken him there for his cancer treatment and operations before they showed me how to give chemotherapy at home. i then started the long walk back. by the time i got home i think i cried myself dry. still very, very low. me thinks it was a good job i came back a different way, not so many high bridges to look over. oh well i will have to start the long road to picking myself up again. by te way estimated walking distance 25 to 28 miles. whatever it is a long way to walk.
| 23 May 10, 1:34 PM BlueVelvet UK(B), 9 yrs |
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| 23 May 10, 3:31 PM xXx_scarlet_xXx UK, 4 yrs |
Well done for getting out and walking it off. If it works for you, do it. Crying is good, it might not feel like it at the time but it empties all that enegry out. Cry, bite cushions on your bad days, but on your good days, do remember to smile back at all the happy memories you had with Goldie- and I'm sure there were many... I'm sure Goldie wouldn't like to think of you so upset over him being at rest. He is out of any possibility of unspoken pain or restriction now. Everyone has their time. Make your time count now, try.
(º•.¸(¨*•.¸¸.•*¨)¸.•º) «.•°•. Scarlet .•°•.» (¸.•º(¸.•¨**¨•.¸)º•.¸) Edited 23 May 10, 3:32 PM by xXx_scarlet_xXx |
| 23 May 10, 9:26 PM AmberStClare UK(BN), 5 yrs |
I know how much it hurts to lose your companion but Goldie is at peace now. topaz x I'm the one your mother warned you about |
