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Home. Safe. Feeling kind of relieved. I'm a fucking liability sometimes.
It suddenly doesn't seem so much fun with a knife in your throat. Doesn't seem like so much of a game, waiting to see if he will push it through the back of your head.
The helplessness of the situation suddenly hits you; you can't move, can't see, can't get away. Even if you weren't tied, he could stab you to death before you took your second step.
You start trying to rationalise all the reasons why this stranger won't kill you. Though in truth, you know those reasons don't mean a thing. So you just have to wait, wait for the pain.
Wait for death.
When it doesn't come, when the knife is removed, I guess there is relief. You're too busy trying to breathe to notice it too much.
Trying to slow those shallow panic breaths. Trying not to think about what might come next. Trying to listen to where he is, and what he's doing. Because all you can hear is your own panting.
Is your own fear.
Edited Sun 16 May 10, 11:28 PM by poutanaki
| 16 May 10, 11:36 PM StanBWonderful UK(L), 6 yrs |
Be careful!  |
| 17 May 10, 7:34 AM deviant_sub 2 yrs  |
Sounds very intense. lsdeviant.wordpress.com non sibi sed suis |
