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There is a sudden lack of oxygen in the air, though maybe I had just stopped remembering to breathe for a moment. Either way, the big deep breaths are not helping.
There's the worry that I might faint, because suddenly I feel so light headed. I tell myself to stop being so silly, that it's just the panic.
Feels like every drop of moisture has evaporated from my mouth. Feels like my legs get wobblier with every step. Though I still keep making them.
My stomach churns, flipping over and over and over. My mind enquires, as to what on earth I think I'm doing.
I wait where you asked. Shaking now, well maybe I was before, but that is when I notice it. I'm trying to tap my anxiety into the floor with my foot. Clinging onto the wall behind me, fearing I might crumble without its support.
Head getting lighter, mouth getting drier, stomach getting sicker. Heart pounding.
Then it's time.
I force myself to move on wobbly legs to your car. Open the door with my shaking hand.
Fight or flight? Fight!
Except I am not going there to fight am I...
I am going to surrender.
Edited Sun 16 May 10, 10:42 PM by poutanaki
