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| TheFalconer |
on Sun 25 Apr 10, 4:26 PM to TheFalconer's blog.
This is the kind of thing I don't usually tend to post here, but felt like cross-posting from my LiveJournal for a change. If you're an LJ user come find me at http://the-falconer.livejournal.com/ Everything I post there tends to be friends-locked, but I'm happy to friend other active journals.
A couple of weeks ago now @taintedinnocence and I did a scene which I feel is worth writing about for a few reasons. Namely it was a lot of fun, it was very intense, it was both a success and a failure, and we learnt a lot from it.
Let me start by talking about the failure aspects of it, since I don't want to dwell on those. The original intent had been that this scene would be the start of a longer session, but in the end I called an end to things at the end of this scene. Basically (as you'll see) it was just a case of a scene which was planned to go one way turning in to something else, and at the end of it I felt drained and needed a break, and thought also that as things had got very intense that taintedinnocence might need aftercare. In hindsight we could have kept going - but that's hindsight for you.
The other "failure" was simply that I pushed taintedinnocence too hard and too fast, and so didn't get the level of compliance I was expecting. But that simply turned the scene in unexpected and enjoyable directions - which is the kind of mistake I'd like to make more often. But I'm getting ahead of myself now...
Knowing the scene was coming, taintedinnocence had been getting visibly nervous. Which is understandable, as she was expecting a scene which might last anything up to 24 hours (I wonder if she would have been more or less nervous if she'd had an idea what was actually going to happen). She kept asking me what I wanted her to wear, and I could tell that she really wanted to be sexy for me. This wasn't really where my head was at - I was planning to tear her down and dehumanise her pretty quickly, and had been planning just to have her strip and take her up to the playroom naked. But I could see how anxious she was getting, and wanted her to relax and be comfortable, so I mentally started modifying my plans and asked her to go get changed in to her "geisha dress".
Once she'd changed, we went up to the playroom together. I'd already set some music going, and we spent a few minutes just embracing and softly dancing as I tried to calm her down. Then I stripped her naked, bent her over the spanking bench, and secured her to it. Her wrists were bound with iron shackles which were then tied to the bench (I wanted to allow her a degree of movement as she was going to be there a while), and her ankles were cuffed, with each cuff then secured with rope to the legs of the spanking bench. The rope ties securing her legs weren't very good and I knew it - but I figured they'd do as her wrists were well tied, and also I was anxious to get started myself.
Looking back, that desire to get going was probably down to a combination of a bit of nervousness on my part too (this was to be the first time we'd done a long scene like this) and also a certain degree of tiredness. Of course, this is what led to me pushing too hard and getting the results I did. But I'm getting ahead of myself again...
With taintedinnocence now secured I grabbed some floggers and went to work on her arse as a warm-up. She loves being flogged and I wanted to help her get in to the right frame of mind.
However - as I mentioned early, I was in a nasty, dehumanising mood. I found myself thinking that since she was already well restrained and was likely (and expecting) to stay that way for several hours, it wasn't really that necessary to worry about getting her "in the mood". That I could just take what I wanted, and the effect of me doing so would be all the greater for the fact that I'd not spent much time working up to it. So it wasn't very long at all before the floggers were discarded and my cock was being forced down taintedinnocence's throat.
From there I moved quickly to fucking her, slipped a plug up her arse, and then bent down to tell her exactly what was going to happen to her - namely that I was going to fuck all of her holes, and then leave her tied up like the slut she was, with my juices dripping out of her. And then, I moved to make her suck my cock, still covered in her juices.
And she refused.
Now this is a point where we probably need to step back and clarify a few things. Firstly, that in our dynamic she doesn't get to refuse any sexual use of her body by me. Ever. That's a rule she's lived under for three years now. Of course, sometimes instinctual refusals will happen when I'm forcing her to do things she doesn't like, nut they're never without consequences and she almost never gets her way (quite possible actually never but I'm not 100% certain).
Secondly, taintedinnocence really hates the taste of herself. Really hates it. When she blogged recently about "undiscovered limits", this is what she was talking about.
Thirdly, we'd done a fantastic scene a couple of weeks previously where taintedinnocence had been down on her hands and knees and I was going from fucking her cunt to forcing full deep throat on her (something we'd never done before but which was achieved between a combination of the position, her willingness and sheer brute force) in repeated cycles. Well I thought it was fantastic anyway. Her views may differ. I mention this mainly to show that forced dirty oral is something that she'd successfully done in the past when she was in the right state of mind (that being - very spaced).
So - as I said - she refused. Point blank. Mouth jammed shut, twisting away. Neither threats nor violence could get her to open up. So in a state of mind which can probably best be described as foul-minded spite, I resolved to fuck her arse with absolutely as little preparation or lube as I could get away with, as in her current position she was far less able to stop me from doing that than she was the oral. I pushed this a little too fast at first though I think, and so (I suspect) helped tip taintedinnocence's mode over from reluctant to livid. As I say though, she wasn't in a position to stop me.
In my state of mind at that moment, however, the anal near-rape wasn't doing it for me. I wanted a broken slut who would moan and writhe and beg me to fill her, but at that moment I clearly had a tigress by the tail. Still - she was secured and I had as long as I needed to break her down. I decided to let her stew in her own juices for a while, so I pulled out, checked that the security camera was working, and then left the room, leaving her tied up and locked in.
Before we continue, a quick note on cameras. We have a network webcam/security camera which we bought expressly for use during this kind of play, in order that I can leave taintedinnocence restrained for long periods while I'm out of the room and not have to worry about her safety. It has the advantage of being remotely monitorable and controllable, but creates fairly low res video and so far has proven to be slightly temperamental (it crashed partway through this scene). We also have a HD digital video camera which I had running during the hour or so the scene actually took, and it's the footage from that I've been using to jog my memory here (even though a large part of the scene ended up taking place out of the camera shot).
So when we left of I'd just left taintedinnocence tied up in the playroom. I went down to my office to check on the security camera feed. taintedinnocence had shifted back and was kneeling on the spanking trestle and looked altogether too comfortable - I made a mental note not to leave so much slack on her restraints next time and jumped in the shower to clean up.
Showering chilled me out a bit and gave me a chance to plan my next move. The vision in my head of how I wanted the scene to go was still very much based around taintedinnocence being very submissive and compliant, so it was clear to me that I needed to keep working at breaking her down. I figured that if humiliation hadn't been doing the trick then I'd try pain, and with that in mind I spent a few minutes after I got out of the shower rooting around the house looking for every set of nipple clamps I could find (in general I'm a pretty organised person, but some things just seem to constantly get lost, and nipple clamps are definitely one of those).
When I got back up to the playroom, however, I was greeted by a rather unexpected sight. I unlocked and opened the playroom door to discover taintedinnocence standing up and halfway through untying one of her ankles. Worse, when she saw me she didn't stop, but just redoubled her attempts to get free, and very quickly was completely loose and trying to run past me.
Again, this is a moment where I need to pause and explain a bit more of the background. As she explained to me afterwards, when I left taintedinnocence to head downstairs she wa pretty much just pissed off. After spending a few minutes seething, she noticed that I'd dropped the handcuff key on the floor near where she was restrained. She managed to reach down and grab the key, and had then spent a couple of minutes trying to surreptitiously move herself and the furniture so that she could undo the cuffs without it being obvious on the security camera what she was doing. Of course, at that moment in time I was in the shower anyway. Her rough plan had been to free herself and the use a set of narrow nipple clamps to pick the lock and get out of the playroom. I don't think she had much chance of actually pulling that off, but still, points for ingenuity there.
So yeah, lesson learned - if you're going to leave someone tied up and unsupervised, don't worry so much about their comfort that you leave them loose enough to escape!
Anyway - learning about all of that came later. At the time, all that was on my mind at that moment was beating the insolence out of her. As Bugs Bunny would put it - "of course you realise this means war".
We've always enjoyed and appreciated the fact that I'm able to enforce my dominance on her physically. Being bigger and stronger means that when all else fails I can simply overpower her, and so my first move was to wrestle her to the floor, hold her down, and best her with my bare hands until she'd calmed down to some degree. I also grabbed the rubber paddle and went to work on her with that for a while too.
Once I'd managed to bring her round to an at least slightly more compliant state of mind, I bound her wrists together, moved her over to our standing dungeon frame, and secured her wrists up above her head. I then bound her ankles in place on the frame too, and for good measure to make absolutely sure she wasn't going anywhere, tied her collar to the pillar in front of her.
Satisfied that she wasn't getting away again, I then clamped her nipples and put clothes pegs on her cunt lips, and then went to work. It was obvious from the first cane blow that taintedinnocence was absolutely seeing red at this point, so my objectives were basically to break her down (and work out my frustrations). Although it seemed to me at the time like it took forever, reviewing the footage it seems that I spent less than ten minutes cropping, paddling and caning her arse and tits before I judged that she was going to be compliant enough to be untied.
I moved her down on to the floor and got her up on her hands and knees. I slapped her cunt a few times to make sure she didn't get any daft ideas, and then moved around and forced her to deep throat me again. After a few minutes of that, I moved back to kneeling down behind her and fucked her for a couple minutes.
I then pulled out, and told her to turn around and suck my cock. She refused again (of course), and so I caned and paddled her arse, as well as caning her feet. Then I fucked her some more. Stopped again, and told her to suck my cock. Another refusal. More beatings.
This went on for several cycles, with the beatings getting more severe each time, but still she held out. Seeing no evidence that I was getting anywhere, I decided that rather than risk getting carried away and doing serious harm to her I'd cut my losses for the time being and assert dominance over her by raping her arse again instead. She dutifully held her place like a good girl while I forced myself inside her and filled her arse with my come.
When we spoke about all this afterwards, taintedinnocence said that actually I was having success in breaking her down, and that if I'd carried on she probably would have willingly sucked my cock after I'd pulled it out of her. So another lesson learned there I guess.
Anyway - as I said back in part one, after this I decided to call an end to the scene rather than keeping going as per the original plan. I felt drained and needed to relax, and after the earlier Houdini act I knew I would be on edge if I left her tied up, wondering if she was going to try to escape again. So we left it there and had a chat about what went right and wrong.
