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| jules9 |
No I haven't got the dates wrong - I'm not that fucking stupid 
It was a year ago today that I decided to quit my old profile and dreadful introduction to "BDSM", so set up a new one, for a fresh start. Still eager and new - yet having learned just a little about the real evil, harmful, gits that genuinely exist in this world enough to make me trust my instincts that little bit more.
Well it's been a hell of a year, and I wouldn't change it for a guaranteed lottery win. I experienced a real D/s relationship, found out how wonderful and how horrid being in love can be, ventured out onto the scene to meet other kinky folk, lost a job, but regained my happiness and now have another job that doesn't make me a shell of my former self. I've loved and lost, lusted and fucked, I've pondered and played, discovered a love unequalled for rope.
I've been one hell of a lucky woman actually.
Yet for the past few months I've been hiding, trying to protect myself from the hurt that being in love cost me - don't get me wrong, it was worth the price, I just couldn't handle that again. I'm back though, I'm ready to venture out, see what life throws my way, and see what the hell I can do with it.
I've lost 12 and a half pounds at fat club and whilst I have LOADS more to loose, I'm in the right headspace, and nothing is going to stop me.
I've got amazing friends, a family so close and so loving I couldn't create a better one in my dreams. I'm no longer so career minded that I think I will die if I don't reach R&D director for a major FMCG company by the age of 35. I'm learning to live and enjoy my life again.
Depression is a bitch, but I've been out of it for a month now, and I just feel sooooo bloody lucky - I'm taking the lack of it for all that I can - and a little bit more besides!
Anyway, although I'd love replies, I don't expect them for yet another one of my brain dumps. I just wanted something to look back on, when the darkness tries creeping in again, so I can remind myself all that it is I have to fight for.
Oh, and Happy St Patrick's day!
XxX
| 17 Mar 10, 8:04 PM little_temptress 4 yrs |
Your right depression is a bitch but it is great to come out the other side and I hope things get better and better for you Tempy xx girls come and start chatting @the_girly_couch | ||
| 17 Mar 10, 8:10 PM jules9 UK(CH), 2 yrs    |
Thank you! May I wish the same for you too? Oooops, too late - I already did XxX | ||
| 17 Mar 10, 9:02 PM OllieVW  2 yrs  |
You seriously need some anal  xx glad your smiley again. Your too cute to frown and smiling burns more calories  "denil isnae just a riva in Egypt" Terry Lawson - Glue by Irvine Welsh | ||
| 17 Mar 10, 9:19 PM jules9 UK(CH), 2 yrs |
Fuck me, any kind of sex will do! Well as long as it's the good kind How's the healing coming along? XxX | ||
| 17 Mar 10, 11:54 PM OllieVW 2 yrs |
Is that an offer
"denil isnae just a riva in Egypt" Terry Lawson - Glue by Irvine Welsh |
