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I used to be normal ?Thank god they cured me

That's true.

I'm paraphrasing.

Would I ever consider using a strap-on on another woman.

You say Ouch like it's a bad word.

This is intriging, as I have read a lot of your blogs. So, how about I add this wrinkle: What if you were in a relationship where you were submitting to that dream lady described in your profile, and she commanded you to use a strap-on with her, emphasising how much it would please her? Would your answer still be the same?

Mari
"Every day is another chance to turn it all around."

that must raise some very contradictory thoughts, perhaps not an area you would wish to enter ?

be a switch, double your fun

Good luck with that thought process if you do decide to question it any further!

XxX

Even without the Domme/sub aspect. If I were in a relationship with a woman, and she liked penetrative sex, would I be willing to don a strap-on to please her.

I think in both scenarios the answer would be yes. I don't underestimate my need to please the person I'm with.

But it would still be weird. Not impossible, just weird.

For many years, since I was quite small to just a couple years ago, what I had always felt like an attachment. And, as you all know, I went through a lot to get it removed. So, putting an attachment back on would be weird. But, I would know it was only an attachment.

I wonder what kind of dreams it would give me? I wonder if it would trigger any phantom penis memories.

Pen

You say Ouch like it's a bad word.

My object all sublime...

ROFL - Love it.

You say Ouch like it's a bad word.

I find the idea of deciding to change one's gender (or perhaps a better way to word it in your case would be changing one's outer body to match one's inner gender) to be fascinating. I have changed elements of my life that most people do not (although not my gender).

I think the weirdness factor might partly depend on how you view the journey you have taken - ie do you feel your body was 'correct' as a male to start with (but this then changed) so that you were destined to take this journey through life and to make the changes you did? Or do you feel you were somehow born into the 'incorrect' body, and all steps you have undergone so far have been to correct it?

If you always viewed what you had as an attachment, and you now wear a strap-on, perhaps all you might feel is that you have a more convenient, more easily removible attachment - not so drastic a change really.

Would it bother you to have such dreams? I often dream of times past, and often my journey in the dreams takes a turn that didn't happen in reality (a sort of what might have been dream). I take these dreams as a way to remember where I have been, where I might have gone, the choices I did make, and the chance to focus on journey not yet taken.

Mari
"Every day is another chance to turn it all around."

Hi,

For me, it wasn't really a 'decision'. I had little option - change or die. But that is another story.

The simple way to describe me is to say I was born into the wrong body. But that is only viewing the 'condition' from an external view point. But is probably good enough of a description for now. When I had surgery, I corrected the external me to match my internal gender.

Saying my penis felt like an attachment might not be 100% accurate. An appendage, a false limb might be a better image. Either case, it didn't feel a part of me.

I think there would be several things weird about wearing a strap-on. The sight of looking down and seeing a cock - fake or real - would be odd. Then there is the feel of it swaying and moving about, it's weight against the body. It would all be very strange. To say nothing of penetrating a woman with it.

For the first year or so after surgery, I had dreams that I had a cock. It was very strange and annoying. Almost like I wasn't free of it. But I knew it was just my mind trying to make sense of sensations and miss interpreting them. I suspect wearing a strap-on might trigger those dreams again.

But it wouldn't be terrible or traumatic. Just strange. I'm actually probably far enough away from it to be fine with it though.

If you want weird. Here's weird. I was once being brought off by a friend and was playing a fantasy in my head of a man fucking a woman. At the build up, and moment of, orgasm, I could feel what it was like to be the woman with a cock in me, and to be the man fucking her. I was, for several moments, feeling what it was like to be both the man and woman, at the same time.

Thanks for the post.

Pen

You say Ouch like it's a bad word.