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on Fri 5 Mar 10, 4:03 AM to Trussedworthy's blog.
Right! No f**king about, this is between me and it.
Stand well back and don't get in the way, we don't want any collateral damage from friendly fire and it's a dangerous time right now.
Really, you'll be fine, I'm calm, I'm winning.
A whole 24hrs + 7hrs since my last cigarette and I'm amazed. A little tetchy perhaps during the 1st day (can you tell?), but amazed I've been able to go over a day without smoking, unplanned, spontaneously decided on a whim.
I never wanted to give up, I want to smoke, really, I enjoy it, I have done for many years.. but..
A friend of mine's just gone into hospital for some serious lung tests, I feel the odd twinge now & again (who doesn't?), common sense (and medical websites) tell me I'm running big risks and paranoia tells me those little twinges we get are our bodies warning us to stop doing what we're doing or else.. They say it's never too late to stop, I hope I'm in time and haven't yet done anything disastrous to my bod.
So.. I'm not ready to say I'm an ex or a non-smoker, I can anytime I want to, I have packets of cigarettes around and carry them with me..
I can have one later if I want, but right now I don't need to.. This mindset is working for me, and has been for over a day now..
I can remember being fine at a time in my life before cigarettes so I obviously don't need them.
A pack a day can work out close to £2k a year, hmmm, £10k in 5 years, serious money.
The trouble with most of the anti-smoking publicity is we tend to disregard it as it's quite horrible and sensationalist. They tell you it will kill you, but don't say when and you look around and see some very old people smoking and think "that's ok, everybody does one day, it hasn't shortened their lives too much, right?"
They tell you it will make you ugly and wrinkled, yet the amount of gorgeous models and celebs who smoke tend to make you think this probably won't happen to you, at least not while you're young enough to care.
They tell you it will make you smelly and unpopular, but the amount of attention you see smoking celebs like Simon Cowell, Kate Moss or Cheryl Cole (or is it Tweedy again now) get make you think actually this is quite irrelevant to your popularity.
However, reading up on lung cancer I came across some heavy duty facts written by all sorts of medical experts, not part of any anti-smoking campaign but presenting facts, no more, no less. And there it is, not sensationalised, no horrible colour photos (as on the packs, designed to be so repulsive you don't look at them so they're not effective), just written calmly and factually. The effects are cumulative and the risks real and increasing daily if you continue. We're getting into russian roulette territory here.
So no replacement therapies, hypno-babble, nic-quit-patch-phone-line-help-support needed, just one quote, a simple medical statement free of hyperbole, political point scoring or "health & safety" condescending medical advice is all I need to focus my will power.
And focus it I will on those silly little white sticks. You've given me much pleasure over the years but now I know I must stop..
| 5 Mar 10, 7:02 AM LeatherDaddi UK, 7 yrs |
I have to say Well Done! I also actually enjoy smoking, but know I need to stop. So, good luck and keep up the good work. |
| 5 Mar 10, 10:41 AM prettyname UK(NW), 11 yrs |
Well done!  ~“Nothing is ever the same as they said it was. It's what I've never seen before that I recognise.” Diane Arbus~ |
| 5 Mar 10, 11:06 AM Trussedworthy UK(NW), 6 yrs |
Thank You all. I'm still winning  |
| 5 Mar 10, 1:19 PM RelentlessQuest UK(HA), 4 yrs |
Keep going .. I know its not easy ... because Im coming up to three weeks being smoke free... And even though I would love to have a ciggie ... i feel better already ... Go on you know you can do it !!! The most tangible intangible ........ We all have it ........ Treat it with care !! |
| 5 Mar 10, 6:50 PM Trussedworthy UK(NW), 6 yrs |
Cheers.. *note to self* steel yourself, galvanise.. The weekend approaches and with it a whole new set of challenges and triggers to deal with. I want a cigarette, yep, undoubtedly. Am I deriving satisfaction from the fact I'm still winning. Yep, that too. I think I shall be keeping myself to myself this weekend, I don't expect I'll be good company or fun to be around.. |
| 5 Mar 10, 8:26 PM magpieuk UK(LA), 5 yrs      |
O Well done! I had to same sort of thing about 5 years ago - I still crave one now - and I still say to myself if I want one I'll have one but some how I never give in and have one - I just wait for an hour to see if I want one and usually I'm so busy the craving is lost under more urgent demands O bugger me it's hard being interesting all the time. I envy people who can be interesting in 300 characters or less |
| 5 Mar 10, 9:49 PM Nyxiness UK(YO), 5 yrs |
Days 3, 4 and 5 are the toughest. Once you get past that you will be pretty much there. Stick with it, best of luck and you will be glad you gave up in the end.
Btw sugar free lollies helped me Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity. Language is an annoying necessity! |
| 7 Mar 10, 11:05 PM kaleid0scope 6 yrs |
Well done you! How did you do over the weekend? xxx If its fair your after, best you go nilla |
| 7 Mar 10, 11:59 PM Trussedworthy UK(NW), 6 yrs |
Well, if we're judging it on absolute terms.. I'd have to admit.. Oops.. That would be a fail then. I'd prefer to think of it as more a quest or a work in progress than concede defeat quite yet. I did wonderfully to get through Friday night and Saturday but by Sunday afternoon (into the 4th day) there were so many triggers and situations I was becoming a little manic. The effects were psychological and physical, stress bringing on spots and an edgy, anxious, worrying mind, unable to think straight or concentrate on anything. I could have persevered but questioned if feeling like this was really what I wanted so took a conscious decision. Half a cigarette later and I was that calm, nice person I remembered from a few days ago. That was this afternoon. It's still been only half a cigarette in 4 days instead of what could have been up to the best part of 4 packs, so at the moment, with the ability to think and my sanity intact, although not total abstinence quite yet, it's a compromise I'm happy to work with. We'll look upon it as a long war with many battles, which since Wednesday night I'm winning by a score of about 75 - 1. Edited 8 Mar 10, 12:01 AM by Trussedworthy |
