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| 23 Apr 10, 4:06 PM Mister_Chris UK(M), 2 yrs   |
Hmmm.. it's a good question. Something I've been pondering myself recently. I've more recently rediscovered that I am at my most sadistic when I'm on a high, when life is good, and I'm happy, and at the same time I'm also at my most responsive to my occasional masochistic tendancies too. But I prefer things to be tactile, physical, no props, crops, canes, nothing that puts a distance between me and who ever is on the recieving end. It has to be fun, and it has to make me grin. I don't know what my limits would ultimately be, but if it's no longer fun, if it doesn't make me happy, if I'm not grinning, then that would be it. It's more than just plain old violence tho, or ultra violence. It's the whole affair, what's said, the looks in each others eyes, and it's not necessarily fear that I'm looking for in her eyes. As I've said before elsewhere, I don't want an inferior, I need an equal, and it's an equal dose of hedonism, masochism and sadism, and damned good fun. Unhappy Mr Chris is not a sadist or masochist, or any of the above. Just doesn't work for me if it doesn't make me happy. But neither does everything have to be violent to make me happy, more the opposite, I have to be happy to be everything violent. I've probably gone off the OP... rambling and will shut up.
Any photographer who says he's not a voyeur is either stupid or a liar. - Helmut Newton | ||
| 5 May 10, 12:20 AM Thumbell UK(B), 4 yrs |
I am still trying to figure out why i dream about this so much and yet a recent experience where i essentially experienced a bit too much of a smack bottom made me feel uncomfortable not horny. What Mister Chris mentions (v.s) resonates with me as i think i have to be happy and very confident to enjoy being torn down. If i'm a bit fragile then i become passive and there's no fun in it for me if i'm not really fighting it, however it seems to be when i am at my weakest i tend to fantasise the most about it. Perhaps it is my subconscious associating it with feelings of confidence and happiness and cheering me up through the awesome power of wanking. I like to think so. I'm sticking with that theory for now. | ||
| 6 May 10, 4:46 PM Marvell UK, 4 yrs |
Over the years this is something I have considered a number of times. My need to dominate, degrade, hurt, love, abuse is as natural as my need to drink, eat, sleep, laugh etc. My need for each goes up and down based on context, how turned on I am, specific objectives I may have set for my own amusement etc etc, but most importantly how I feel at the time. Authenticity of experience has always been very important to me, hence the reason I have never really understood the concept of purely casual play (or safe words come to that). For me to be at my best and at my worst, I need to feel it. What I feel about an individual will have an impact on what I will do with them, what plans I have in store for them, either mentally or physically.
"Overhead, without any fuss, the stars were going out." | ||
| 6 Jun 10, 7:05 PM Adorabelle UK(PR), 2 yrs |
As far as the OP is concerned, I definitely crave more as I experience more. I want more in terms of quantity, I want to experience the pain in various different areas of my body, I want it to hurt so much more than the last time. The only thing I really fear as such is that one day, I'll end up in A&E, but the actual part of this that scares me, is that knowing enough damage was done to warrant a trip to casualty will only thrill me and make me want to seek it to even more extremes. "Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." - Dr Seuss. | ||
| 13 Jun 10, 11:55 AM Doctor_Crane 2 yrs |
Whenever I have felt like causing pain in the past it's always been different. Sometimes I have just felt like slapping her and sometimes I've felt like beating her black and blue. I don't believe I could ever get bored of beating someone because no matter how I hurt them it's always just as satisfying. Oh God it happened again | ||
| 13 Jun 10, 3:25 PM NotTheOne UK(TA), 2 yrs |
I stared into the abyss, the abyss stared into me. It blinked first. | ||
| 13 Jun 10, 3:58 PM Belasarius UK(M), 8 yrs      |
Can I refer you to Ralph Nader's book of 1965. My goal - to save women from nature (Dior) | ||
| 13 Jun 10, 4:02 PM NotTheOne UK(TA), 2 yrs |
Can I refer you to Roadcraft, and to the fact motor car design has moved on since then, both for use on the public highway and for use on closed circuits. Driving, at any speed, like bdsm, is an excercise in awareness and risk management. I stared into the abyss, the abyss stared into me. It blinked first. | ||
| 16 Jun 10, 12:13 AM dizzy_lizzard UK(M), 2 yrs |
I personally find the risk taking the most thrilling part but do worry that sooner or later I may take risks with the wrong person at the wrong time. But for me it is the thrill of the unknown, the lack of control and adrenalin that accompanies that I find so addictive, and I do think that to get the same high the boundaries do have to be pushed. |
