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Written some time ago....
After 3 days of no food I have felt it most today.
Woke up with pain in my shoulders, not sure if I slept funny or it is to do with the lack of food, but my body has been generally achey all day. My lower back hurts a little and my stomach feels tender. The muscles in my legs ache going up and down stairs and arms ache with the slightest effort. I suspect because my body has used up all the glycogen stored in my muscles for energy.
I have felt a little nauseas on and off all day, and had a bit of reflux last night and this dinner time. There is the occasional wave of nausea that almost feels like I could be sick, though I know there is nothing in my stomach to be sick. I went for a walk at dinner time, but it was shorter than the one yesterday and slower.
Making my bed just now left me breathless and when I got in I had a intense burst of pins and needles in my right leg for the time it's taken me to write this far.
I am glad you didn't let eat today, I would have been disappointed if I had given in. I was so tempted to have just one chocolate today, but I didn't and am pleased with myself for resisting. For showing you that I could to this.
Have been thinking about doing this, at a time that I am with you. You watching me getting weaker and weaker. Have fantasised about you holding me in your arms and feeling my empty belly and telling me what a good girl I am. While half of me really wants to eat, needs to eat. I think if you asked me to do another day, I'd try, even though I really don't want to.
| 2 Feb 10, 9:03 AM River_Deep UK(M), 6 yrs |
Fascinating. RD xx It is not what you say or do but the way you say or do it | |
| 2 Feb 10, 9:19 AM just_tope 6 yrs |
I don't know if this is true or fantasy, either way, be very careful. This sort of thrill at control over your body (even if it's not you emotionally controlling, you have to be the one in control in order for it to happen) can lead to all sorts of problems. Please don't do it for long periods of time, as much as it may please you both to have that commitment, it won't feel so good when your body has started to eat the muscle around your heart. Sorry to be a killjoy, I'm not so long as you're being careful. Just a word to the wise. x "If confusion is the first step to knowledge, I must be a genius" ~ Larry Leissner | |
| 2 Feb 10, 9:51 AM poutanaki UK(M), 9 yrs |
Yes it was a diary entry of a real experience...
I'm always careful No seriously... I make a point of understanding the risks of the things I may get up too, and am well researched in this particular area. No need to worry.
Your so pretty when your on your knees. Disinfected, eager to please | |
| 2 Feb 10, 11:20 AM Miss_Despotic UK(M), 4 yrs    |
Lovely!  | |
| 2 Feb 10, 11:55 AM just_tope 6 yrs |
Glad to hear it hun. Not being a misery, sounds delish and something I know I'd do, but others who haven't thought about it could end up psychologically dependant on that kind of control. I'll shut up now  Enjoy x "If confusion is the first step to knowledge, I must be a genius" ~ Larry Leissner |
