Guilt (33)

Sometimes, though, it can be unexpected. During one caning session, something clicked in my girl's head and a VERY unpleasant memory resurfaced all of a sudden.

Although I wasn't involved with or responsible for the event in question, I certainly regret being the catalyst which brought it to the surface.

You know they say it's always the quiet ones you have to watch? That's me.

Maybe guilt IS the wrong word.It implies something that might take quite some getting over but in many cases it doesn't.

Last weekend I was playing a scene and,as a reprisal for doing something she had been told not to do I tied my sub up in a way that she finds impossible to escape from and then flogged her.It was an uncomfortable stress position, wrists roped to ankles and I detected a change in her usual pleading from the doe eyed,manipulative to the edge of distress begging for me to stop.

Of course I did stop and this retrieved the situation somewhat.Talking abput it later though it transpired that she found it both quite unpleasant and deeply erotic at the same time.I think that what we did was to confront what had been a hard limit (her total inability to give in and admit defeat)and to put her into a position where this appeared to be her only way out.

She avoided the abject,grovelling subjugation on this occasion but she now knows that she cannot be sure of doing so on every future ocasion.I may feel a type of guilt again over this but I suppose it's a price that has to be paid in pursuit of the perfect scene.

"Be quiet and come with me. I won't betray you."