Subspace in public or inappropriate places? (12)

Making sure you have the right ones to suit you personally is the most important thing to find out before anything else.

I'm glad you put the original letter back I could have given the totally wrong advise based on your snip, whereas SheilaBlyge has been able to write a much more appropriate one that will probably help a lot more.

Tracie..x

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Actually I do both. Lucky me - multi-talented! Not both at the same time of course... er well, I assume not anyway.

I was thinking of the "stay constantly aware but with extreme 'floatiness'" when I wrote the long post. I like your descriptions, I find them perfectly clear. Floaty is good in the right company, but more like bad/lost moorings/untetheredness in the wrong place or time.

The reason I think I identified this one with sub space is that friend I mentioned who helps me out at work. We have a close connection and he is very alert and observant. I can catch his eye when I am feeling spaced, assuming he hasn't noticed already, and he reads me well enough to know what's up (always). He'll come round and offer a gentle touch on the shoulder, or call me round and offer/make some other small appropriate physical contact, which helps me to ground. Most importantly he keeps a close eye on me and runs protective interference if someone wants to talk to me at times like that. Knowing someone has my back allows me to feel calm and safe, warm and fuzzy, as though he's holding me in the palm of his hand. Hence, there seemed to me to be a cross-over with subspace, but I probably had that bit backwards.

If he's not there I tend to spiral up towards panic. Aka go outside and try to calm down and end up crying for no reason except apparently to release some kind of tension. Damn. Setting it out in type makes it seem so...you're all correct, I will go talk to the doctor this week. Especially now you've reminded me of the zone-out, 'lost time' as well.

As to that - my team made me a handy sign to wear when I 'zone-out' (time lost type) and since I don't have many photos I've remembered I wanted to upload that for my profile. Not totally flattering but definitely 'me'.

Incidentally, and just for fun: the time my 'not-in-public' filters let me down? I took part in a charity 'slave auction' at Uni. I'd never heard of BDSM or anything, to me it was just a bit of fun. Unfortunately the ?Slave Master?, ?Slave Seller? – Big-Shouty-Man in the bare chest and leather skirt and sandals with the bi-i-ig whip was just a bit too good with his role-playing! Everyone else is having a mucking about and I'm stuck kneeling head down in a totally submissive state, thinking w-t-f?. Eventually bought out of pity by a medico who bought me dinner and totally never got his money's worth. {facepalm} lol!

Thank you to everyone for your help. I will definitely go and see if I can adjust these pesky meds.

Edited 25 Jan 10, 12:28 AM by NimueBanditQueen