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Seriously, I'm 10 weeks now apparently, and it's all mad. This pregnant thing is far more complicated than expected. There's loads of things to think about, what to eat, what you can and can't do, which vitamins to take, which appointments to go to, and all that while feeling permanently sick, so tired that going to bed at 8 every night still doesn't help and feeling like I am carrying a brick in my pelvis. Oh, and mostly pretending that isn't the case because I haven't told work yet. Absolutely nuts.
BDSM, as we all know, is also complicated, it has written rules, unwritten social ettiquettes and the bizarre edge of going against what seems sensible.
So how the hell to put them together?
Up until now we've got by on mostly vanilla, we have the promise that fisting is allowed at 28 weeks (well, perineal massage is just vanilla fisting right?) and I think that might be what Himself is holding onto during the times when he comes to bed to find me fast asleep in my pyjamas, not to be woken on pain of mama-bear grumpyness and dry retching. But I'm feeling the itch. I'm starting to get kinky dreams again, and oddly, I'm pregnant in them now.
Part of me is getting desperate for some serious kink to happen, I feel more vulnerable, more His and in some ways, more sexual in this condition. Another part however want's to kick anyone who tries to come near me, I'm fiercely protective of my unborn child in a primal kind of way that I couldn't have imagined. It goes beyond reason and overrides anything else, to the point that "yes Sir" turns into "don't you dare come anywhere near my baby you bastard!" Somehow, that needs to be worked on, for all our sakes.
Then there is the club aspect, I'd like to get out and about and do some fetish clubbing, if I ever have the energy to be awake past 9. But part of me can't face it. I'm quite comfortable with my changing shape (the phenomenal tits help) but that's me, that's kind of between me and Him. When I go clubbing I want to be beautiful, stereotypically so, and in a situation where I can't tightlace and none of my outfits could sensibly deal with my growing bump, I feel a bit out of sorts. I'm also not so sure how it would go down, perhaps it is my own misgivings surfacing, but would many kinksters be comfortable in a dungeon where a pregnant sub was being, erm, the object of a sadist's affections?
It's definitely a funny old world being me right now.
| 13 Jan 10, 11:26 PM Cuddly_Tiger UK, 6 yrs  |
I'd love to see that. "Peas" is a registered trademark of the bogie marketing board. | |
| 14 Jan 10, 12:18 AM maya_lila UK(SE), 5 yrs |
Congratulations on your pregnancy  how exciting for you guys! Really hope I am in your shoes in a year or so's time!Personally I wouldn't fancy any kind of play which gives me pain or distress if I was pregnant. Unnecessary stress isn't advisable for pregnant women, and I think the "good" stress of play would create the same physiological/hormonal responses in the body as negative stress. Same as I wouldn't do hunter trials or abseiling or anything like that while pregnant. The surges of adrenalin and cortisol from exciting things are great for us, but don't think it would be good for the baby. I'd just want to do very gentle yet still satisfying d/s bits, sure there's still loads you can do without sm or suspension bondage, etc. "It is never too late to be what you might have been."
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| 14 Jan 10, 8:20 AM Wiley_Kit UK(PE), 7 yrs |
Awwww congratulations!! Im 32 weeks pregnant now, its seemed like a lifetime ago I was ten weeks. It is horrible the first few weeks, well I found it was! I found out I was pregnant at 6 weeks, although my 'morning' (ha thats a joke!) sickness started a couple of weeks before. I have to be honest and say all the advice of how to control it didn't seem to help with me, although those travel sickness wristbands seemed to calm it down a little bit. Feeling so run down and grumpy and not telling anyone at work why seemed hard! I did tell them when I was 12 weeks though, not long after that my sickness stopped, but have to admit, ive pretty much constantly throughout have felt uber tired! Hasn't afffected my sex drive though, even in my tired, whale like status, we are still having sex almost every night, this pregnancy has sent my hormones into overdrive,lol. Admitedly though I havent been to any clubs, purely because im not a night person these days, im knackered by about 8pm, so no way I could stay awake at a club purely on water. I have to say Ive met a couple of bad reactions from people on the scene about indulging in this world whilst being pregnant. One man even said he found it sick that a pregnant woman would be on this site. I just took it with a pinch of salt and thought he is definately in the minority with that thought. As for being fiercely overprotective of your child..ha, that definately hasn't passed with me whatsoever, its a good quality anyway, so I wouldn't worry too much about it. Anyway, enough of me rambling, yay, hope your sickness doesn't last too much longer. x
I can't believe I've no control | |
| 14 Jan 10, 9:25 AM Mabesque UK(LS), 4 yrs |
People are pretty much conditioned to respond to pregnant women in danger, so clubs might be hard. Perhaps an alternative would be a private party with people you know will be okay with it? I think I've read some stuff about people dealing with pregnancy on here before so hopefully one of them will come along and give some useful advice! You can't change the direction of the wind, but you can adjust your sails. |
