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| relaxed1 |
on Sat 26 Dec 09, 11:36 AM to relaxed1's blog.
This blog set me thinking about my own situation.
I'm fortunate in some ways that the split has never meant pulling the kids two ways or dividing up their time, as we have continued to spend major times as a family. This caused the break-up of a relationship for me because my boys refused to meet an ex, probably out of loyalty to their mother.
I've always wanted to integrate the various parts of my life, and have no doubt that now the one-time children are young men that it will be easier, but it's been a long slog, painful at times, because I've always had no compunction about putting my children first.
So, yes it's meant at times that I've been lonely, and yes it's meant that I've perhaps been a harder person to be in a relationship with than might otherwise have been the case. There is little doubt in my mind that it's meant that whenever I have felt that I have found 'the one' person who would be able to understand and accept all of the challenges in my life that I have been more hurt when it's not worked out that might otherwise have been the case.
Would I change it? Some of it, in a heartbeat. But no useful purpose is ever served by dwelling on the past. I have had some wonderful times, with some wonderful people. I've learned much about myself that has prepared me better for the future.
"Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten".
| 26 Dec 09, 1:10 PM little_temptress 4 yrs |
So this is your time now then Time to live the life you want as they are young men and sometimes you will have to accept the choices they make (and maybe not like them) and they will need to do the same. Easy for me to say as I don't have children but I have watched someone who has grown up kids live the life their children dictate as they fear the repercussions and that just seems so unfair to me.
So start writing your book now Yesterday is history,
Tomorrow is a mystery,
Today is a gift |
