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| maihri |
on Thu 13 Jan 05, 10:42 AM to maihri's blog.
Well, if I'd had a glimpse into the future just two years ago, I just wouldn't have believed it. I would never have guessed in a million years that (a) BDSM lifestyles really existed outside of novels and that (b) my much beloved husband would be willing to even consider taking part in pervery.
With reference to b) I know feel ashamed that I underestimated him so badly. We have learnt and explored together and are still doing so- I hope we never finish discovering everything about each other. I've learned a lot about myself and even more about him and I trust him more than ever. And as for showing my appreciation, what nicer way than to kneel at his feet... I've always 'worshipped the ground that he walked on' and it's lovely to be able to demonstrate that physically. However, to me, he'll always be my husband first and my Dominant second. If the only way to stay together would be to give up BDSM, then I'd grieve and rant and rail, but I'd do it in a flash.
So how did we get here? Of course, it all began with the net. My interest in SM was piqued by some lovely erotica from the elloras cave ebook website. It slowly dawned on me that all the books I really liked reading were in the capture/bondage section. Oh,duh. In fact one of the novels described websites similar to IC, so I cautiously began to explore the net, and here I am today, happier than ever, meeting people on the net and in the clubs and with a *very* happy homelife.
So for all of you out there who have a vanilla partner, then it can be done, it is possible to take this road together, if you are both willing to try and to take things slowly. I do sometimes wonder if Himself and I are different to other couples? We are quite self-contained as a unit and we've been through a lot of years together. Our first consideration is always for the other, (good grief that makes me sound like a some sort of smug prig!) whether that makes a difference or not in a relationship, who knows?
Anyway enough of the philosophy, must get on and do housewifely things, (though it's more fun if I pretend it's slavey things! Anything to get through the ironing!)
Maihri
Edited Thu 13 Jan 05, 11:28 AM by maihri
