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| 24 Mar 10, 8:23 AM MissAnnThropist UK(SE), 3 yrs     |
I've been following this thread/blog closely as it's something I now have to consider, having recently come out of kinky relationship. It's still an emotionally painful subject but in some ways it is helping me reassess my needs and I how intend to meet them, if I meet them.
Prior to my last relationship, I only played in clubs, with friends I know and trust. TBH this only scratches the masochistic needs of mine, and in light of recent events I'm not sure if its too soon for me to return to that approach. Casual play wouldn't enable me to scratch the D/s needs I have - or at least I feel that way at the moment, as I feel I need to have a closer bond with someone to carry that out. Not just to meet my desires of being dominated, but to fulfill my need for a sense of purpose - a need to be needed and desired because of my servitude and devotion. I guess I will definitely be waiting till in a relationship to meet that set of needs, but am not in the right frame of mind yet to even consider getting into a relationship (this only happened a fortnight ago).
I certainly wouldn't consider a one night stand as I need to be close to someone to open up to them sexually. Yes to some that might seem restrictive - maybe a little prudish - but its just something I can't shake off. Even the concept of a f*** buddy - nilla or otherwise - just doesn't work for me (I learnt the hard way a long time ago): sure I get the instant fix, but immediately after I feel worthless (and not in the sexy consentual degradation & humility sense). It just makes me feel depressed. That is my personal view and it does not make any impact on my view of others who are perfectly happy being in open relationships or casual sex and play. I'm just not wired that way (and sometimes I really wish I was Take me to bed and rip me apart Edited 24 Mar 10, 8:24 AM by MissAnnThropist |
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