Posted by melody_A
on Tue 17 Nov 09, 6:05 PM to melody_A's blog.
Things change, life moves on and we find ourselves in a different place.
Something that was very good for a long time has ended. It ended a while ago. We both knew and we both felt it.
I have nothing but respect and admiration for this man. He is truly is a gentleman and I hope that he will always be in my life – for who would want to lose such a friend? He inspired me, encouraged me and taught me how to believe in myself.
I wish him only the very best.
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So, times change. A new love – well not so new anymore. It feels odd to talk about him on the same page as the end of my relationship with A. Perhaps I'll introduce you to him another time.
A question? Do I keep the history of my previous relationship, or do I quietly file it all away so as not to cause offence? My new love doesn't know of the things I have written here.
Is it kinder to 'hide' my thoughts and feelings from a bygone age? Would I want to read words he had written about another?
Perhaps I'll ponder a while more.
No rush – he isn't going anywhere.
| 17 Nov 09, 6:32 PM relaxed1 UK(BR), 6 yrs  |
The past is history - your history - and filing it away won't change any of that, just whether your record of it is there in black and white. I have all the postings I've made (with a very few exceptions, where I have been asked to remove them) still on here, and elsewhere, and everyone I'm involved with is free to read them because they are who I am, a record of how I got to where I am today. Certainly most of it is of no interest, and the volume would dissuade all but the most determined of readers, but why hide any of it? Be proud of your past, as you are of your present. "We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking up at the stars" | |
| 17 Nov 09, 6:35 PM eloesa UK(SO), 7 yrs       |
Hiya Hun, I'm sorry to hear about you and A , but also happy to hear that you are ok. It's not really for me to say, but I can't help thinking that what you have written here was about your various life thoughts and experiences, both good times and bad. It's about you and your life.. and these things all have helped make you what you are today.. They shaped how you view the world and how it views you! It's parts of your life that have got you to where you are now. You can always move on , but memories should be forever.. He accepts you just as you are... He accepts your past , just as you were just my op of course.. love to you and mini-you when do i get to meet him?
They say, the best men are moulded out of faults; And, for the most, become much more the better for being a little bad. | |
| 19 Nov 09, 8:08 AM melody_A UK, 8 yrs |
Oh I am, I just don't want my new love to be hurt in any way. Some of what I've written is so intimate, almost like taking a peek at love letters. It's just that I'm not sure I'd want to read his intimate thoughts of another. "Thou loggerheaded rude-growing flax-wench!" | |
| 19 Nov 09, 8:09 AM melody_A UK, 8 yrs |
Let's make it soon. Thanks E, you are a true friend. "Thou loggerheaded rude-growing flax-wench!" |
