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| Alleycatt |
on Fri 23 Oct 09, 9:22 PM to Alleycatt's blog.
My father passed away. 3 days before I turned 16.
I had to grow up a lot that day, but sometimes I still feel like that 15 year old girl. Today I felt like that.
I keep replaying placing my head on the pillow next to his. Begging him to turn and look at me. My mouth shaking and the pillow getting wet with my silent tears.
I can hear him singing in the kitchen. I still turn to his chair when something funny happens. I miss his optimism and his pride in everything I did.
Days like this are rare. I usually manage to think about him and smile, even laugh.
The pain doesn't go away. I learnt to live with it. Today the knife was twisted again. Tomorrow I will learn to live with a slightly different feeling of pain.
| 23 Oct 09, 9:27 PM CPeccavi 4 yrs |
Not been there myself, Alley Cat, and I guess you've heard it all before, anyway. Having said that, my memo box is open. X I think everyone should like everybody ..... Andy Warhol |
| 23 Oct 09, 9:42 PM knot_obsessed UK(NN), 6 yrs |
hey honey, it never hurts less, but it does hurt less often. Six years and i still go to ring him..... i miss him so very very much. Big hugs xxx An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind. - Mahatma Gandhi "Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life." - Terry Pratchett. |
| 23 Oct 09, 9:55 PM Alleycatt UK(CF), 4 yrs |
Thank you both  x |
| 24 Oct 09, 11:12 AM shania 12 yrs |
Hugs, Pain is still there but you learn to live with it. 11 years and I still miss mine, especially this year as I've had some very momentous things going on, getting married & qualifying as an accountant. shan xx |
| 24 Oct 09, 11:16 AM Praes_girl UK(WV), 5 yrs |
Its only been 7 months since the loss of mine and it hurts beyond words, sending hugs to you on this sad day xx |
| 24 Oct 09, 3:52 PM Alleycatt UK(CF), 4 yrs |
*hugs all* |
