Time to move on (5)

Posted by anncat on Thu 15 Oct 09, 11:35 PM to anncat's blog.

Its been almost 2 years now since i split with my exMaster, and i have still not managed to submit to another.

I am worrying whether i have it in me... or whether it was just something he brought out in me. The 4 years we were together, i felt like i had finally found someone who understood me. All my life became clear, even after we split i started looking around, knowing i needed another Dom.

now I wonder whether i can submit to another again, i also worry.... worry because i know i was the happiest i had ever been.

ramblings.... i shall think about this more!!

Replies

15 Oct 09, 11:49 PM Diablos_patience UK, 6 yrs	Hiya ann Long time no chat.... I think its difficult when you have devoted yourself to someone so completely to ever see how anyone else will ever be able to fill their shoes. I know this from my own personal experience..... the never quite believing that anyone could ever come close to enabling you to have similar intense experiences that you have both shared. They do say time is a great healer..... and i think 2 years is more than long enough to grieve the end of a relationship. You have so much to give and im sure once you start looking, and more importantly allowing others to get close to you, you will find what it is that you seek. Good luck ~* Raku wa ku no tané; ku wa raku no tané. *~
16 Oct 09, 12:00 AM radcoa 3 yrs	maybe you are turning Domme.
16 Oct 09, 12:32 AM Big_Friendly_Giant UK(RM), 9 yrs	When a relationship ends there is often the need for another to fill the gap but also the fear that we open our selves to the same pain should we find that special person and then have to suffer the pain of loss. What we do not realise is that loss and pain is the price we pay for finding what we feel will make us whole. Sometimes it is better to learn to accept ourselves for what we are. Not dependent on others to make us feel whole. Then when we do enter into a relationship we are less likely to be hurt if it does not last for ever.
16 Oct 09, 1:45 AM ThePhilanthropist 4 yrs	Hi, only time will tell... You've got all my sympathy... But somewhere inside you don't stop believing... I wish you all the best. Peace I'm only a filthy philanderer...
11 Nov 09, 3:14 PM blaster413 UK(HU), 3 yrs	Be positive, I believe life gives more than one chance, but you must always use your experiences to guide you in the future. Do not rule out anything, keep your mind open, but do not run headlong into anything. All relationships are different, so do not look for exactly the same, you could find new heights of happiness as you progress, put the past behind, think of the future.