Giving Thanks (3)

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Posted by Call_Me_Harmony on Tue 22 Sep 09, 9:57 PM to Call_Me_Harmony's blog.

The last two years have been one hell of a roller coaster one way or another. Some amazing highs some devestating lows and some little bumps and hills along the way.

I guess being human I have let the negative emotions show through more than the positive even when I have chosen not to fully explain the what and why's of the negative's.

So during this equinox I have been ruminating on balance and expressing that in my life by a little more expression of the positives.

So in a spirit of redress I would like to give thanks for some of the things that I may not always appear to have appreciated.

Thank you for realising we had to call it quits long before I did. If left to me we would have gone much further down the slope before I was ready to jump off and all got hurt more than we were.

Thank you for the practical and financial assistance that made the move possible.

Thank you for my wonderful flat. I love it. It is bright and spacious and totally mine.

Thanks for remaining neutral and allowing me to retain my trust and respect in you.

Thank you for being my friend, my soulmate, my strength and my comfort even when we will never be lovers in the traditional sense.

Thanks for being my friends even when I don't make a lot of time for you and you don't make a lot of time for me. It is good to know the friendships remain.

Thank you for not asking too much of me. For recognising when my resources were low and I had little left to give.

Thank you for reminding me the depth of submission I am capable of giving even though circumstances meant we could not take things further. I am grateful for the reminder.

Thanks for allowing me to walk away without drama or dudgeon when we realised that wanting a D/s relationship to develop doesn't mean it will.

Thank you for hurting me so deliciously without wanting or asking for more.

Thanks for the flowers I will never be able to explain how much that meant to me.

Thank you for the comfort of lying wrapped in your arms. The feelings of safety and being cared for and protected. The tenderness and gentleness that make such a wonderful counterpoint to that which precedes it.

Deep gratitude to whatever it is that allows me with time to always find the positives from any situation, to learn the needed lessons and look backwards and forwards with gratitude and tenderness.

It is good to be me

Replies

22 Sep 09, 10:29 PM epona74 UK(SL), 7 yrs	That is beautiful to read! :o) Two roads diverged in a wood and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference. (R Frost) How long will you have to look for a feeling, if you're looking in the wrong filing cabinet? (R Wilkins)
23 Sep 09, 9:35 AM Lady_Villen UK(MK), 6 yrs	Thats really deep hon, beautifully written and from the heart. xx Hugs and Spanks to all xx
23 Sep 09, 8:52 PM krazykittie UK(LE), 2 yrs	This really is beautiful Harmony. Warms the heart.