Bad Day (5)

Posted by Khrysalis on Wed 2 Sep 09, 8:59 PM to Khrysalis's blog.

Well I ventured out of the house today, on my own! Well I had a support worker on the phone talking to me while I did it so not sure it counts as really alone.

Went to Stockport Women's Centre to see if it would be a good place for me to go and get better. It seemed uncomfortable and weird there and, well, full of crazy ladies. I should have been right at home! I'm really not sure it will do me good to go. I think I am better off at home, but as always I was too polite to say that to the support worker who had kindly taken me to the centre.

I got home and couldn't get off the couch all afternoon. Have crashed completely and it is all I can do to be typing this into my phone.

I am too tired to get something to eat, and too tired to drink. All I want is to curl up in a dark space and not wake up. Where is the joy in life? What is the fucking point?!

Replies

2 Sep 09, 9:24 PM jenevieve UK(CH), 4 yrs	Well done in getting out and about. You can do this.
2 Sep 09, 9:25 PM switch_bitch UK(G), 6 yrs	The point is, You DId It!!! That was a real big thing, so be proud! Just because it felt awkward or hard, not what you feel you need today, does not mean next time it won't be, things that we find hard to do, take time to become easier! If you go through life with your head in the sand, all people will see, is an arse ........................................... It starts when you sink in his arms.....and ends with your arms in the sink!
2 Sep 09, 10:01 PM xoangelox 7 yrs	may seem hard right now but well done and you should be really really proud of your self i know how hard it is xxxxxx
2 Sep 09, 11:10 PM ukreva UK(PL), 2 yrs	i understand... just a vote of solidarity here. good luck, always available to listen if you wish.
3 Sep 09, 11:46 PM Khrysalis UK(SK), 2 yrs	Thank you so much for your support. I'm taking one step at a time and am determined not to let it beat me. Master is being incredlbly strong for me and is doing everything He can for me. He even came home this afternoon, from work, to take me to my GP appointment. I love my Master. XxX