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| bighugs |
Thankyou for everyone who explained where I was going wrong and hints re: posting my picture.
(Mr Carr, don't say a word, these are my thoughts, I
know its only because you only care and have picked up
the pieces in past...but shush, just read and
listen...) 
Over the last couple of days someone who was very dear
to me re appeared in my life.
I thought I could still loved him, I thought just maybe we could work through everything, a small bit of me thought...but very quickly after the intial shock.......NO, he is not what I want, yes i have forgiven him, but this little kitten has moved on but hadn't released. (No i'm not a relationship but thats not the issue.)
I am stronger now, thankyou, you taught me so much, you opened my eyes to the world. I realised after you left the other night I need more than you can offer, sorry sweetheart but theres more to me than you will ever be able to see however hard you look. I will always appricate what you did for me all those years ago. *long sigh*, enormous hug is all I can offer you now.
Its snowing by the way !!!!!!!!!
The biggest step for me was sharing my space with some
one eles, actually trusting someone enough to fall
asleep in some one eles arms. 
A friend of mine said "to get over one prick, sit on
another !"
It would have been so easy to pull some raduim guy in a club and f*cked him. Pleased I didn't.
I've been window shopping, going to choose myself some boots, always wanted some, a soft leather skirt, bask the one i've seen is purple and black and laces up at the back. Not forgetting some toys, but *very shy* so stopping there.
see you later, big hugs, xxx
Edited Sun 22 Feb 04, 2:31 PM by bighugs
