Posted by filthyhighlander on Sun 12 Jul 09, 11:21 PM to filthyhighlander's blog.
Master is still working very very hard to train me - know it must be very tough on him having to do this for a newbie but he is totally fantastic and I love being Dominated by him – what he asks me to do, how he punishes me and then his gentle side.
I work hard at what Master asks as I want to do well & learn and one day would love Master to care about me and parade me around and want me properly as his slave.
Whether I am lucky enough or not to be promoted that high from the lowly slut bottom I'm at at the moment I don't know. Even lowly subs can have dreams.
I am very open and honest but just can't bring myself to tell Master (don't know if he actually does read my blogs that he has asked me to do) that I would walk over hot coals and jump out of a plane for him (and I hate heights!) both for what he is doing for me, and having him as a wonderful Master really does mean that much to me. I know I am very very lucky to have him. My little doubting side does really get me stressed out.
I just wish the thrill and anticipation of what punishment I will receive along with the gentleness happened more often.
I decided to act like a spoilt brat on Friday night and got THE call off Master, who was very sweet. Was told to go on webcam in a chatroom on another site I am on and have some fun. Master said part of my training and once my 2 minute rant was over I ended up doing it. Was fun to watch all the messages popping up on my screen.
Master then allowed me over for some punishment. The stress of knowing that he was only giving me so long to get to his, while still emailing me and expecting a response and of course my dying for some of his punishment was just adding to the thrill of what he was going to do to me. Was so glad the taxi driver didn't follow the speed limit rules and sitting in the back of that taxi with nothing on under my coat other than my fishnets and my slut heels on was just making me want to be there now – not 20 minutes away - ready for that unbelievable punishment he dishes out, knowing that I will be in mind blowing heaven. I just couldn't wait.
Master then told me he expected my posture collar on as soon as I got out of the taxi which I didn't quite manage – he was not happy. Posture collar was put on after dragging my pathetic ass into the flat, head lowered in shame at not obeying him. The lead was attached as it should be. Master decided to tease me, making me kneel at his feet and also stand before him, hands behind my back, not being allowed to touch him, while he ran his hands over me then yanking and pulling that lead so violently. He was very generous after a while of putting me in my place and introduced me to figging – was a pretty unbelievable feeling and if Master wanted to be generous again I wouldn't say no (not that I would have a choice).
Master keeps threatening me with 24 hour punishment, and still needs to cane me 300 times – I hope that punishment comes very very soon.
