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| alexandraa |
Ohhh so many threads I wanted to pick up tonight and that was after thinking to myself I was drying up and running out of things to blog about. Anyway firstly bucks1 said – Too strong or too weak to submit? Its neither bucks. Its an inner desire, a burning, a need, a hope, a wish. I personally think you have it but respect your wish to take a different path. When I talk of dominance or submission and hear people question their wish to be in the lifestyle I always say where do your desires lie. I know for me, yes I can switch, I can pick up a cane and get enjoyment from giving someone else pleasure & pain but the fulfillment, the burn, the erotic charge, the absolute delight and sense of completeness come from my absolute submission to that one special person.
Too strong or too weak doesn't enter into it. It's the balance, the fit with the other person. I don't know if I'll ever submit again because I don't know if I'll ever meet anyone I want to give myself to in that way. That does not mean I do not want to give myself. It just means that the fit has to be right. I know I will play and I know I will have S&M and sex and lots of fun. Will I experience that deep submission ever again? Who knows?
As you all well know the only fit I can see right now is my fit with Colbeh and it will take some considerable time yet for that to fade. You can't just stop loving someone and move along swiftly. Well I cant anyway. And in any case there is much there to cherish and adore. I personally think it takes amazing strength to be submissive but then it takes amazing strength to form a deep bond in any relationship, to trust utterly and give completely. So Dom, sub or vanilla if you want a deep relationship you need to be brave, take risks and enjoy. Never ever for the tiniest of moments do I have regret for my time with Colbeh, just happiness and delight that I had it at all. I also understand how people can be torn and love more than one person.
So the second thing that attracted my attention was the Paganism stuff. There's only one thing I've ever felt a desire to worship..... on my knees... but let's not get into that. (Hears the disappointed sighs rushing round the blogger's reading room). Now then religion, a topic as Colbeh was want to say, “do not engage” with lol. But hey I was raised catholic, convent schools the lot, so I figure I have a right, so here's my penneth worth.
I have to agree with PaganDiver. Bigotry abounds. The Catholic Church has a great deal to answer for, as do other Christian religions, to say nothing of yet other non-christian religions.. We don't have to look far for religious based nastiness. But just for the record Catholics too were persecuted in Nazi Germany. I have a grandfather that died in a concentration camp because he was Catholic and a strongly religious Catholic grandmother, who I wish I'd known properly, that ran an escape route for Jewish people. Would that we could all be so brave and see less persecution in the world. I for one doubt my strength to stand up and be so brave. I would hope I could be as strong as she was.
Religion gets used as a battering ram, a cause and a reason to discriminate and hate and make war. I suppose its just something to give people to fight about, to rally behind, to use as motivational force. We are an aggressive race is the problem I suppose. Thank god (pun not intended) we all just take it out on each other's arses.... Yum.... Does it make us more peaceful as a group? Errrrr.... well.... no... judging by all the handbags at dawn nonsense that's going on at the moment. Ah well... going off to read my book now and be peaceful on my own.
Edited Tue 24 Aug 04, 6:53 PM by alexandraa
