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| alexandraa |
Thing is when you get it just right, complete and utter submission to complete and utter Dominance is a most marvellous magical thing. Its seriously fulfilling and just beyond words to describe the state of mind reached and the pleasure that can be experienced. When you truly meet someone you can drop your barriers with and they can drop their barriers with you, when you can both open yourselves completely to each other and trust absolutely in each other then you have it cracked.
I have lived that and there is no better drug. I was called his slave, dropped to my knees at his gesture, knew without knowing how what he expected of me next. Adored to lick him clean. Followed his body language like a hawk so i could please him by responding without orders. I could go on and on and on. Where is the shame in that? I found no shame. I was proud and full of joy at my level of submission to him. Proud he was my Dominant. Proud he wanted to own me so completely.
I was held so safe, so cared for, so protected, so loved. I was fulfilled in all ways emotionally and physically, beaten and fucked raw on an extremely regular basis. I wanted for nothing and I gave everything.
Until you have given of yourself utterly and then given even more, given more than you can believe possible, until you have loved so your soul sings with joy, until your body trembles to the slightest sound of his voice or touch of his hand, until you have stepped off that cliff backwards and trusted absolutely, do not knock submission nor dominance for what do you measure it against?
I do not give my submission readily and I would not expect a Dominant to give his Dominance readily. There are plenty that do not understand that but they will explore and learn and discover truly what dominance and submission can really mean if they have the intellect, the willingness to learn, the patience and are lucky enough to find someone to bond with. Then in time they will look back and think OMG did I really used to send emails like that?
We all stumble and bumble when we are new to things. I can remember being an idiot sub when I first jumped into the lifestyle.
I prefer to offer a helping hand rather than attack. I admit there are some I humour and ever so ever so slightly take the piss when I reply... But I never forget there was a time when I was learning too. I still have much to learn and no doubt one day when I choose to give my gift of submission again (and yes it is a gift just as dominance is a gift to give too)I will learn all over what it means.
Right now I remember with joy and delight dropping to my knees, obeying him and pleasing his slightest wish. Dont knock that its fabulous.
Edited Wed 23 Jun 04, 6:07 PM by alexandraa
