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| alexandraa |
Odd weekend, friend's BBQ was a little strained for one reason and another but it was still good to see people again. We think we're unique but in reality we're not. I found myself comforting a friend while she told me how she felt, every emotion mirrored my own. I suppose we're all human animals and are mostly very alike in our behaviours. Similar patterns at least.
I've got to say I was desperate to talk to Colbeh about it all and was all but kidding myself it was an "emergency" hehhe. Of course it wasn't but it made me realise all over again just how much I relied on him for peace of mind and calmness.
Well I did a nuts thing today a couple of friends have been nagging me to go for a Tarot card reading shhhhhhhh bollocks I know but I have this kind of streak in me which is very fatalistic and so logically that means to me Tarot can have meaning. Yep I know me, the sane, logical and pratical woman went to listen to a load of codswallop. Or is it?? I dont know. I think its all stuff when you look back you read meaning into it and say ahhhhh it all came true but at the time you look at it like a pattren that just doesn't make sense.
Still the Tarot reader said some pretty amazing things that all kind of fitted and more than anything else its time for me to take time out apparantly and not act on anything. Its like stretchy clothing I suppose you can just make it fit no matter your size.
She told me to go on holiday yeah right as if, anyone know where I can go for 20p? She also told me I worry too much but then take a step forward anyone that thinks they dont? Cynical ohhh yes.... so why did I go?? Well it was something different that I could do on my own and i got out and explored an area of London I dont know too. A form of entertainment I suppose. There's my excuse and I'm sticking to it so there ner ner. All in all it was a happy afternoon.
Oh she told me to mediate too.
Ohmmmmmmm Ohmmmmmmmmmm
Edited Sun 20 Jun 04, 9:03 PM by alexandraa
