Posted by filthyhighlander on Sat 4 Jul 09, 8:10 PM to filthyhighlander's blog.
Master has told me to write a blog after every session and task – hoping there will be quite a few on here then (depending if I pass my huge task – see previous blog). I'm still searching and stressing.
My blog is for me to get advice, suggestions and also how I can perform better for Master the next time – NOT FOR ANYONE TO HAVE A GO AT MASTER AS HE IS BRILLIANT AT WHAT HE DOES IN DISCIPLING ME, TEACHING THIS NEW SUB LOTS OF THINGS ALONG THE WAY AND PUSHING MY BOUNDARIES – HE IS NOT MY “PARTNER”. THIS IS ALL PART OF MY LEARNING CURVE & TASKS ALONG THE WAY.
So if any of you care to read on – any advice on whether I could have performed better or just advice from fellow subs or the wonderful Masters/Mistresses out there would be gratefully received. Or if an experienced sub fancies joining me in showing me what I am doing wrong lol
Master was obviously wanting to teach me a lesson Thurs/Fri before he came round to punish his slut as I was made to wear the butt plug Thurs night and Fri during work. Pictures were sent to prove that I was a good girl and did as he asked. Went for a little shopping trip – like a child at xmas trying to pick things and was grated permission to buy a harness I had my eye on.
The only fitting way for Masters arrival was me kneeling with the harness on, hands behind head, ball gag and butt plug in and blindfolded. Knowing he was in the room, smelling him, feeling his touch on me but not being able to move and being denied touching him was driving me insane. When he had had enough he then left me wanting more while he got himself ready.
When Master was ready he then had lots of fun with his slut, teaching her, heightening all her senses. Having his light touch and then heavy hand on me, feeling his rubber trousers against me, slapping my ass, using the pin wheel on my legs, back and ass and writing slut into it and denying me orgasms, wanting to scream my lungs out at how good it was but not being allowed to make a noise was just making the whole experience mind blowing. Knowing the caning stool (as it will now be known) was coming out for sluts punishment of 122 whips – was a bad girl and the answer to his question was doubled. Master gently put the ankle and wrist cuffs and collar on and bent me over the stool, ass in the air for the caning I was going to get (and not forget), he gently ran his hands over me as he put the rope through all the cuffs and tied me down to the stool. Blindfolded and ball gag in just to heighten my senses even more even though they were already in overload - I love his gentleness before the punishment begins. Not being able to move or see and hearing the cane flick past my ear. Waiting for the first blow and having to count each one and “thank you Master” after each, trying not to lose count as the pain was making my heart race, and breathing get deeper with the pure thrill of it, making me so horny, half heartedly begging him to stop but sticking my ass in the air for more. Master was very kind to his slut and did stop a couple of times and having him gently caressing my very red ass was just too much to bear – was ready to explode. It's driving me to distraction thinking about it as I type this but slut did it for Master and took the whole 122 of them. After my punishment Master gently massaged my neck and shoulders and lightly touched my back. The whole thing was so erotic.
Slut didn't get any punishment from Master this morning before he left (even though I could have done it all over again) and as I'm still learning and wanting to do everything right I am now wondering if I could have performed better, did I do it all wrong or as Master said my lovely bruised ass had had enough punishment for one day. Yes I know that I could have asked Master but I would hope and probably know he would have told me during my lesson that I was useless if I was. It's always in the back of my mind that I am just getting it all wrong and I'm not submitting myself enough to him.
Oh it is a tough submissive world – HELP!
FHx
| 5 Jul 09, 8:24 AM The_Colonel_Whatwhat 3 yrs  |
Relax, it sounds like you are doing just fine  I came, I saw, I concurred |
