Posted by filthyhighlander on Fri 3 Jul 09, 1:42 PM to filthyhighlander's blog.
Where do I begin!
This is my first experience as a sub and boy do I have a lot to learn. Done the occasional being tied up, hand round throat, hair pulled but always liked it too much and wanted so much more. Just no one was prepared to go that extra mile for me so here I am.
This is both scary and exciting love being dominated, love the feeling of helplessness and expectation but will I ever learn, will I ever please, will I ever have a Master that is so happy and proud of me?
Even though very new I am lucky enough to have found a Master who is training me and trying to teach me a lesson I know I will never forget but I still need extra help and guidance especially with his most difficult task to date please see my pleading in bold below!
Master has spanked, caned, flogged, gagged and restrained. He has done candle wax, rope, throat grabbing, hair pulling and humiliation, stuck clamps on my clit and my nipples and god has he pulled and flicked them hard, made me stick the biggest butt plug I've ever seen up my ass was even more surprised I managed it all well and truly deserved.
I love the marks, bruises and scratches that I'm left with at the end of every lesson puts this slut in her place and reminds her that she is bottom of the pecking order. I love the sensation of the candle wax on my arse and being tied up so tight there is no way in hell I'm going anywhere. I love my ass being caned to a pulp and knowing I won't be able to sit down the next day. Master also sets little tasks for me along the way. So if you have ever seen some mad women running around the West End that's me trying to fulfil the task set. Tasks have been anything from getting some rubber outfits to butt plugs. He always makes sure I need to go out of my way to do it and giving me the least amount of time possible. Had a couple of busy hours after a hard day in work yesterday, running to get items from his task corset, ball gag, nipple/clit clamps, porn, blindfold and a stool. Proud to say managed it all that included putting the stool together ready for tonight's lesson - hope it takes my weight as I'm bent over and cuffed to it and spanked and caned beyond belief.
Now the difficult task that Master has set me is to find another girl either sub or Mistress. Joining me in being disciplined or dishing it out with Master. I only have 2 weeks left and it has been proving very very difficult even more so because I am new to this and the site I AM ON MY KNEES GROVELLING FOR SOMEONE TO HELP, FOR ANY ADVICE FOR ANYTHING .
Master might not stick around if I fail this task which I don't blame him since I'm proving to be flaming useless. If only I could clone myself I would do it. But that isn't an option eh. I respect and care about Master and am very grateful to him for the time he is spending trying to train me to be a good sub, I trust him without a doubt in being dominant with me, love his tasks, love his texts giving me such a hard time, telling me I'm a slut, making me run round like a headless chicken. Love when he dishes out the punishment that I deserve but then love when I finally get a good girl from him or when he is gentle.
But I'm worried that will all end in 2 weeks if I fail his task. I'm not a quitter that might be the Scot in me and am trying my damn hardest not to fail him but it's not looking good my fellow IC people.
I WILL TAKE ANY ADVICE YOU DEEM FIT FOR THIS PATHETIC IN TRAINING SUB AND HER QUEST TO PLEASE HER MASTER
FH XX
| 3 Jul 09, 2:02 PM canupleaseme UK(S), 3 yrs  |
Hi I doubt very much that it will all stop if you fail to find someone to engage in play with you both. If it does then he is very silly. Finding someone to join as a third as a D or an S is difficult enough and can take months and months even years to find the right person. Why not hire a pro sub or Domme? At least you can explain the situation and you can pretty much guarantee you won't be let down.
It sounds like your having fun with your master |
| 3 Jul 09, 2:25 PM ScarlettDeWinter UK(BS), 3 yrs |
If he's willing to leave you because you've "failed" one, very difficult task, then he sounds quite questionable as a partner. Don't forget that whilst he's your dom, he is also your partner and things like finding a Sub to both play with should be a mututal thing. It's hard work: it shouldn't all be left up to you. xxx All of us are in the gutter, but some of us are looking up at the stars. Oscar Wilde. |
| 3 Jul 09, 3:03 PM Subbenn UK(SW), 3 yrs  |
How active are you on "the scene"? Do you go to munches and events? If not, go to some and see who you meet. Not only are people likely to show an interest, but it'll be much easier to judge how genuine they are as well. |
| 3 Jul 09, 6:12 PM DaddysTouch UK(RG), 3 yrs |
I'm sure he won't be too displeased. You've tried your best and you obviously want to succeed. Sometimes it does matter if you can't do something, even if you've tried, but I doubt this is one of them. 'Ability to find people for threesomes,' isn't really up there on a submissive's job description. It doesn't make two people incompatible just because one couldn't find a third in a certain time limit. I'd be very surprised if the idea of leaving you over this even crosses his mind. If you're in a serious relationship, finding a third shouldn't be something you rush or put time constraints on in my opinion (but hey, different strokes). Being specific about her being a submissive makes it a bit harder than normal, so as has been said, I guess you just have to search 'the scene'. I don't think there's any particular way to go about it. Maybe ask your friends to ask their friends if they know anyone who might be interested, stuff like that. What men in all the world have shown such daring? Edited 3 Jul 09, 6:17 PM by DaddysTouch |
I hope you manage to sort something out. 