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| Forced2Fuck |
My Words
Tomorrow is R-day for another soon-to-be satisfied customer. I have been corresponding with her since she replied to my profile a few short weeks ago and her time has now come.
Being the thoughtful type she has written down her feelings pre-rape, and being the thoughtful type I have decided to put them up here for you lot to read.
I will get her to write a “rape report” after the evil deed has been done, and I promise to publish it here, good or bad, for you to see how it all turned out.
So stay tuned rapefans, for more exciting comings and goings (and comings) on your favourite Rapelog…
(Comments welcome…)
Her Words
I'm writing to record how I feel about tomorrow.
I feel calmer than I thought I would (please don't mistake this for being totally calm – I'm very far from that!). It all appears in my head, still all rather surreal. I know I won't feel this calm tomorrow morning. I know I'm apprehensive though, I've been to the toilet more this morning than I have in the past week put together. I knew they'd be some health benefits to this somewhere along the line…
I had a bit of a panic on Monday morning. I kind of anticipated this. If I'm ever doing something a little scary that week, it always hits me on the Monday morning. I did however have a bit of a bad day on Monday, therefore I think this escalated my fear. There were a couple of bits in the memo you sent me on Monday afternoon that scared the living daylights out of me. Having now read those bits back whilst in a different frame of mind, they are still scary, but not 'leave the country, quick' scary.
This scenario is very different for me. Something new to me; something that I haven't done before. I have certain rules I play by. Here's some of them: 1) As a general rule, I don't have penetrative sex with play partners. 2) I don't play not being dressed in latex. 3) I don't play in my own home. 4) I never, ever, meet and play straight away. I always have a meet first, go away, then if we both want to play we meet up at a later date and do so.
I'm not breaking these rules one by one, I'm bringing them all crashing down in one fell swoop. But you do keep telling me that rules are meant for breaking .
I can't decide which rule-break I'm more nervous about. I'm nervous about some, excited about some, and completely shitting my pants about others! We have had a lot of correspondence over the past few weeks. This has contributed vastly to my current mental state (which, for the record, is as horny as hell and as scared as fuck – currently in that order, but I'm sure that will change by the morning!).
I think if I wasn't so horny right now I'd be much more apprehensive. I do feel, as you suggested, wound like a coiled spring, ready to explode into a huge mass of orgasm. I have to go for a meeting this morning; I know it's going to be difficult to think of anything else but being attacked, abused, raped and humiliated by a stranger in my own home, at the very same time the next day that my meeting's taking place.
Some things I do make me question my own sanity. This is one of them. Although I am widely perceived as being rather a 'sane' person, I always tend to live on the pretence that you only live once, so why not do what you wish to do. I can't really see the point in dying with a head full of unfulfilled fantasies. And this is something I very much want to do. I haven't doubted my decision at all, since it was made.
Rape is always pretty close to the top of my fantasy list and has been for many years, in various guises. Rape in itself is good enough, because of being taken, having all choice taken away from me, being forced to surrender completely. But with this rape, we have extensively discussed play preferences, so rather than a 'normal' session, where I submit through choice to my partner, I am now putting myself in the position where you will take absolutely anything you want from me.
I'm playing with few limits and no safeword. This is my choice and I stand by my decision. I'm happy with this, and I am 100% sure I don't wish to change my mind on this score. This situation will enhance the feelings of helplessness, loss of control and vulnerability for me. This is what I crave for and this is what I want, 100%.
I am scared about tomorrow, but I am incredibly horny too, moreso than I believe I've ever experienced before. You've verbally approached me (in written form) in every way possible; emptied my head of its' contents, screwed them all up and thrown them back in no particular order! You're very gifted in the verbal foreplay department. Like I mentioned yesterday, this in itself has been an experience I wouldn't want to have missed, with or without the actual rape.
So, with my knickers having been consistently wet over the past week (nothing to do with the weather!), and finding my hands keep wanting to wander down 'south', though they're not permitted to stay there for long because of my wanking ban (), I've found it extremely difficult to concentrate on anything except tomorrow. It's come round exceptionally quick in a way, which is a good thing from the horny aspect, and not such a good thing from the scared aspect. My guts are in knots. I'm not sure if my guts are doing more somersaults than my clit or my head!
One of the most exciting aspects about this is the fact I've never met you. I say 'exciting', maybe that's a nice way of meaning 'crapping myself' .
I'm as ready as I'm going to get though. But I do know I'm going to be beyond terrified in the morning! I love being scared, I seriously get off on it, and I can honestly say that I've never been so scared about anything in my life…
Edited Fri 3 Jul 09, 9:44 PM by Forced2Fuck
| 2 Jul 09, 6:06 PM Tovarich UK, 7 yrs  |
Interesting reading for me, this. The one time I did this, the emotions beforehand were completely the other way round - her completely relaxed about the idea and me totally bricking it! Of course, for me it was very much going against the grain, but she'd done as much for me the previous week by giving me a well-marked backside, so only fair I did what she wanted in exchange. Walking to her flat, chanting a little nervous mantra in my head: "Don't stop if she says 'stop', do stop if she says 'Blackpool illuminations'.....should I stop if she calls me by my name? Yeah, probably, I'm supposed to be a stranger...." And, of course, it all worked out fine because once we started I realised I wasn't having to do anything apart from be a little more forceful than usual, she was happily away in her head. Interesting to read the same level of cosiness between people who are naturally geared towards this, though. I look forward to reading the follow-up. Tovarich is a combination of frothy comedy with bitter political undertones.- googlism | |
| 2 Jul 09, 6:47 PM star_phoenix 8 yrs |
Bored housewife alone all day goes off for a cold shower x Edited 2 Jul 09, 6:48 PM by star_phoenix | |
| 3 Jul 09, 5:02 PM Max_Bedroom 5 yrs |
Look, I appreciate that I am courting controversy here, and, to be honest, I can see the attraction in rape play, although I wouldn't say it is my "thing" as such. But the use of the word "rape" in the title, without the inverted commas, unsettles me. I just wonder how a rape victim might perceive it, and I am guessing that in some cases, it could be upsetting. So, please, this is not a case of me stepping outside the holy law of YKIOK, because what you describe here clearly is between consenting adults... But I am wrong to suggest that those inverted commas might make all the difference? | |
| 14 Jul 09, 3:14 PM Forced2Fuck UK(NW), 3 yrs |
Glad I made a bored houswife slightly less bored. If ever your lucky husband is foolish enough to leave you all alone all day again then be sure to inadvertently let me know your adress and to carelessly leave the back door unlocked... You might want to have another cold shower when you read the full account of the "rape" ... X
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| 14 Jul 09, 3:19 PM Forced2Fuck UK(NW), 3 yrs |
Both! Yes it involved pain and yes it was a stranger style scenario (she never saw my face at all during the whole 6.5 hours!) If you haven't already read it you might want to read the full account of the "rape" I posted yesterday. Happy reading...
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| 14 Jul 09, 3:22 PM Forced2Fuck UK(NW), 3 yrs |
Thanks for taking the time to comment. Sorry I took so long to comment back. Yes, you're right, being a rapist isn't as easy it might appear. It's a dirty and difficult job, but someone's got to do it...
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| 14 Jul 09, 6:42 PM Sweet_Intoxication 4 yrs |
6.5 (hours) X 8.5 (inches of your cock) = (for arguments sake, 90 thrusts per minute = 5400 thrusts per hour; for arguments sake you MUST have been fucking me for 4.5 hours of this time = 24300 thrusts) = 24300 X 8.5 inches = 206550 inches = 3.25994 miles
I took 3.25 miles of cock in one day !!! Anyone know whether this is worth getting in touch with Norris McWhirter?
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| 15 Jul 09, 2:27 PM Tovarich UK, 7 yrs |
It could've been worse: I think I became my most assertive when I outright refused to walk across Barking's Gascoigne estate wearing an old ski-mask and carrying a knife....I'd have gotten my head kicked in! Tovarich is a combination of frothy comedy with bitter political undertones.- googlism | |
| 24 Aug 11, 1:14 PM Abilicious UK(M), 16 mths |
arghhhh im excited to read what happened now! | |
| 24 Aug 11, 7:31 PM Forced2Fuck UK(NW), 3 yrs |
"Arghhhh"? I suggest you save the screams for a strange man in a balaclavas grabs you by the throat... |
