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| alexandraa |
I think there is little that is more deliciously tormenting and tortuous than being pushed to extremes mentally yet having to behave in ways expected or ordered of you.
Everything from from having to stand without moving or making a noise during a caning to evil teasing torment that pushes you to the point where you want to jump on your respective Dominant and slap their face stupid until they tell you what you want to know. Today has been a particular day for that. I wanted some information from M today and knew as soon as i originally asked last night that there was no way he was going to tell me. I was not clever enough in my approach, foolishly asking a simple and straight forward question that needed a teeny tiny yes or no. Too direct, too demanding possibly? Silly silly slave expecting to get a nice quick answer.
Have you ever noticed how you have to skirt round certain questions like they are poisonous snakes? You have to sneak up on them unawares, wait until they are basking in the sun, all quiet and unexpecting, then slip them in while you carry out diversionary tactics on your Dominant. Cross yor fingers and hope upon hope they wont realise and will just give you a straight answer. No such flipping luck. I have suffered a gruelling day of torment and teasing and await a simple yes or no still. Of course the more he knows i am frustrated the more he is enjoying it. Dammit.
I have hovered between laughing about it, wanting to scream and, god help me, wanting to push him to the bed and sit on him slapping his face till he tells me. Cant help it thats the image in my mind. Not that ever ever ever in a million trillion years i would dare such a thing. That's the extent of my mental bondage. That's the control he has me under. Maddeningly screamingly frustrated where i would have banged my ex husband over the head with a saucepan. With M i just simmer but its all contained and should he give me THE LOOK i do of course immediately dissolve into utterly soft compliant and submissive slave mode. He loves it so much and no doubt has amused himself hugely with me today.
Humph
Ahh well his pleasure is my pleasure...... 
and to
be honest i've had a great day too.... hehehehe
Edited Tue 9 Mar 04, 5:51 PM by alexandraa
