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| alexandraa |
Well what can I say evilness and sore spots every which way you turn guess M is feeling loads better and like a close friend said i have more stripes than a zebra. Great isn't it? Well I think so and so does he. Yum.
I also think he's perfect. (His turn to squirm hehehhe). As capry says Doms have their faults and imperfections like any other human being out there. What i would say is M is a perfect match for me. We both recognise, Ds or not, we are human beings in a relationship. The particular dynamic of our relationship is perfect for us both. Its a wonderful thing to have freedom and not make personality compromises, but simply to be able to be the person you want to be. Even as his slave where my every thought is directed at pleasing him, at no point do i feel the need to suppress or pretend to be something other than what I am.
It seems mad no doubt that in a position of complete control that i do in fact find complete freedom finally to be myself. To have the luxury of not suppressing your feelings, thoughts and desires. To not suppress the smallest thought or the biggest worry. Its still a novelty to me even after all this time. To know I am listened to and that no silly thought is ignored (possibly mocked but never ignored - i admit it i have blonde moments).
How is it that control can give you freedom? I think because there is absolute security there, feelings of safety and acceptance like I have never experienced even as a child. But now I am so certain I am held safe and protected I have absolute freedom to express myself, to be myself, to achieve whatever i want.
Tell you what though........ that hot shower in the morning isn't half going to sting. Yum.
Edited Wed 25 Feb 04, 10:55 PM by alexandraa
