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on Tue 3 Feb 04, 7:59 PM to Brindle's blog.
and so here goes!
ermmmm *mind goes blank*
Ok - so - I'm new. I'm new to teh scene and new to here. (Oh - and I can't spell "the" without a huge mental effort and deep concentation - I have no idea why not - it only started happening a few years ago - but sod it. these days when spellchecker ain't available I just ignore it. I hope you all will too!)
So - back top the point of this biog - I'm new, and I want to learn and explore.
I'm buy inclination a Domme (it runs in the family - I get it off my Dad) and after many yrs in a vanilla relatinship which I ended last year I'm looking to develop my own honesty, self belief, confidence, appreciation and truth about my sexuality and personality.
I've always know I had these feelings (back to when I was about 8 or 9) and never saw anything wrong with them in my teens - until I met and fell in love with the wrong person.
Now I have a second chance. And I intend to make use of it.
Anyhow having memo'ed a few people and done a bit of chatting and been to the Leeds munch (what a welcome! it was wonderful! and so much less scarey than I thought) I am now considering becoming a key-holder to someone, so this will be my first real BDSM experience.
It's thrilling and terrifying at teh same time (maybe as a Domme I shouldn't be admiting this - but who cares? I swore when I left him I'd never be anything but honest about myself or my relationships and feelings again....) but I've never been so turned on in my life.
It gives me deep, deep feelings of serenety, calm and tenderness. As I wrote to him the other day..."The exchange of power - you giving over your emotional and physical well-being in return for my care of you. I want someone to cherish - I just want to express it in a way slightly different from the norm!...If this relationship works and goes from strength to strength, you would enable me to walk tall (all 5'2" of me...) with inner confidence, self belief and pride through giving me your obedience, trust and devotion. you would make me strong by giving me your strength. you would make me more desirable by giving me control of your desire. you would make me more of a Domme by giving me your submissiveness. "
Does this reflect anyone else's feelings? I'd be interested to know....
Edited Tue 3 Feb 04, 10:04 PM by Brindle
