Next Chapter (4)

Posted by bighugs on Thu 19 Mar 09, 4:34 PM to bighugs's blog.

I have been on here for over 5 years, some years. In the beginning I was living in York, not a clue what BDSM was, or munch, even the expression vanilla was alien. I was happy enough blogging, reading others and replying and constantly learning and becoming more familiar with who I was all along. I just had not found the words to explore or describe it. Reading back they are funny and happily naive.

Was looking at the wedding/reception guest list, it is those who I first met here, are there on the list, they are still so much a positive influence where others have faded into the background.

My first not munch. (2004)

It started well, found the Winning Post York, time and date. Chatted online to others who attended and had offered to look for me. So all should have been good…I am a stress bucket 100% thorough bred. I got as far as out side the pub, I remember stopping looking at the entrance, and walking on by to the shop instead….

Attempt two:

This time reached the pub and ordered a drink…but did I dare go through the magic door to another world … did I heck *laughs* must have been so obvious for all those around me.

Then Success on the third time, never looked back from there, or sort of didn't. One of those experiences, did not miss it as I never realise I ever had it until it had gone. If that makes sense? My blog and it does to me…

Since then made so many real life friends as well as online, who have stayed with me throughout the years. Some of them are more like best friends now. Actually, yes I would but them in that category.

From munches to Nemesis, to diverse range of private parties, to BBB…now feeling missing a link, a social outlet in the Leicestershire area. I have the sexual outlet with my relationship he is amazing. It is more to related to the conversations, skills experiences.

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The blogs have changed over time too. At first they were almost daily regarding day-to-day life, and bouncing off others with so much laughter. The middle years while at university encompassed various deaths, stress with exams etc and the whole general tone changed with a serious undertone. During the last few years saw a final change, very sporadic blogs and posts, combining the two but increasingly more vague, keeping details private.

The seasons are changing and I wonder what the next chapter will bring.