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| alexandraa |
I feel very stressed at the moment. It makes me angry.
It makes me cross with colleagues who don't listen to what I'm trying to say. It makes me angry with drivers who are too hesitant or cut me up. It makes me angry with pedestrians who text as they walk, or teenagers who saunter 3 astride blocking pavements. It makes me angry with parents taking out children in prams. Take your prams and shove them. It makes me angry in supermarkets with people bumbling their trolleys. It infuriates me that my washing machine has an alarm on it, demanding MY attention. I will empty you when I am good and fucking ready.
When I'm stressed I think I must go into super speed mode. I need everything to be done now, and quickly. No quicker than that even. For fucks sake get on with it. Unless you are my washing machine. In which case, fuck off. And don't get in my way. So don't ring me and talk about your nonsense. Don't call me and whine about your problems or relationships. Don't whitter at me about the weather and the next door neighbour. Don't remind me I need to do things. In fact don't call me at all. I lose all sense of patience. I don't give a fuck actually. Fuck off I say. Fuck off else I might kill you. I want to beat and batter and gnash my teeth. Rant and rage and make someone bloody. Join battle with swords and cut off people's limbs, see the blood fly…… or maybe just lie on the sofa and pull a fluffy blanket over my head… and cry.
My shoulders ache, my head hurts and tears are just seconds away. I hate everyone. You all just hurt me. You add to my stress. Go away. Leave me alone. Lock the doors and don't answer the phones. Unless……
Unless you are here to dominate me.
Unless you want to take me by the hair and shake me. Unless you want to slap me and make me let go. Unless you want to pull my attention from me to You. Unless you understand me and know me and focus on me. Unless you want to fuck me stupid and beat me. Unless you have confident no nonsense demands and your sex drive tells you to fuck fuck fuck me and fill me with your spunk. Unless you want to take my mouth and arse and cunt and use them. Unless you understand I need to let go of the rage inside me.
I need to become nothing. I need to be emptied of my fury. I need to let every cell in me loosen and accept that someone else has control. I need to accept your penetration. I need to open myself to your fingers and cock. I need to open my mind to your dominance. I need to understand that someone else knows best.
I need to become light. I need to float away. I need to feel that golden glow moment of utter satisfaction and complete protection. To feel encircled, beloved and precious. To feel here and now, these are the only things that truly matter. Everything else is transitory.
| 25 Jan 09, 12:25 PM lozza1965 5 yrs |
Well i can see your having a crap time of it at the moment, but i got to be honest, after having a lousy shitty weekend and being pissed off with one and all, your quote from above made me laugh ( got this mental picture of you shouting at the washing machine which i find somewhat rather amusing ). All i can say is i hope things brighten up for your because for all the anger that your thread delivered, it also made someone laugh, so for that i can only say thankyou and cheer up lozza
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| 25 Jan 09, 12:59 PM alexandraa UK(NW), 8 yrs |
Thank you! As much as things are crap, a smile is never far from me either. AND my washing machine is so so bossy you just wouldn't believe it.
Be careful what you wish for | ||
| 25 Jan 09, 4:48 PM Prunesquallor UK(RG), 6 yrs |
Do I hear beeping? | ||
| 25 Jan 09, 9:30 PM alexandraa UK(NW), 8 yrs |
Grrrrrrrrr Be careful what you wish for | ||
| 27 Jan 09, 2:44 AM Mesmeric UK, 4 yrs |
What is the world coming to when washing machines start topping from the bottom? I should give it a good thrashing and remind it that its sole purpose in life is to serve and to do so with good grace. If this doesn't bring it to heel a spell in the garage is called for...sometimes life in the kitchen can be too cosy... | ||
| 28 Jan 09, 6:37 PM alexandraa UK(NW), 8 yrs |
I have withdrawn from it to punish it and have not spoken to it for 3 days now. That will teach it a lesson for now but next it will be the garage definitely.
Be careful what you wish for | ||
| 29 Jan 09, 11:06 PM Mesmeric UK, 4 yrs |
Clearly at 2.44 in the morning and with a wretched cold, the effect of various noxious proprietary medicines caused my underworked brain to go into overdrive. Of course washing machines can't behave badly. They are just menial domestic appliances. But when the freezer starts to hum and whistle because it demands to be defrosted...well that just takes things into a different league altogether... |
