Posted by LacednLicked
on Wed 3 Dec 08, 8:22 PM to LacednLicked's blog.
Tags: Warrington (WA)
Writing this because I just had an interesting conversation which has led to me having to challenge how I view myself.
I have never considered myself a feminine type of girl, I spent my teen years in doc martins and my dad's naval shirts. When I got to about 16 I went from knee length blonde hair to a skinhead. I loved my boyish style. I was skinny and tall and it suited me. It was further reinforced by comments from my mum who would often tell me I had a boyish shape, was straight up and down etc.
So it became that I never felt comfortable in girly type clothes and didn't view myself as feminine at all. I started wearing them more recently, actually since coming on the scene really. Despite the frequency with which I wear these items I still feel a bit of a fraud. Like a boy playing dress up in his mums clothing! I love the high heels, seamed stockings and corsets but walking across a room in a girlish outfit makes me feel oddly inferior at times.
Anyway to get to the point, during a conversation about "types" it came up that Foo views me as femme. That was really odd to read, so I asked Laura did she think I was feminine and she said "very". So I was quite stunned to say the least. Am slightly chuffed that people may think I don't look quite so daft in a dress as I sometimes feel but also a lot surprised. I am wearing my standard LBD tomorrow because its one of the few dresses I have which actually do feel "normal" to me now. Its weird to think though that others have accepted this feminine appearance I attempt to portray, more readily than I accept myself it seems.
| 3 Dec 08, 8:34 PM LaRouge UK(L), 7 yrs  |
I know where your coming from with this one... I've gone through a few changes myself, and probably will untill i find what fits for me. My perceptions, or rather, how i feel others percive me, have got in the way of me really letting loose and enjoying myself What I have come to realise now, it that I like being many things and I am glad we have the freedom to express whatever they may be... Will chat to you face to face sometime, about this if you like... La Rouge x I don't want to be anyones girlfriend, I want to be EVERYONES!... |
| 3 Dec 08, 9:46 PM CPeccavi 4 yrs |
I can tell you exactly what it is that's caused this identity problem. Ladies are gentle and sweet. They don't HIT little girls. I suggest you try fluttering your eyelashes a few times a day, practice the doe-eyed upwards glance and take as your mantra 'I will always be extra nice to Peccavi'. A Man Is For Pleasure, Not For Life |
| 3 Dec 08, 9:56 PM totallycoverme UK(M), 4 yrs |
wow...you should see some of my photos when i had a spiky shaved head...are you sure you're not my biographer? lol hugs
thanks for relating to me and i'm so glad that i can relate to you in this way too
hugs |
| 3 Dec 08, 11:03 PM Talullah_Red 3 yrs |
you are one of the sexiest women i know, and that is main reason is because you do your thing how you want to do it your sassy! x badges? I don't need no stinking badges!!!! |
| 4 Dec 08, 8:14 AM AlNxee 4 yrs |
as some one who has a very masculine outlook on life, I have always found you to be very feminine, yes the seamed stockings are a huge tick in the box. I dont think it is about how you dress but more how you act. As an example I have not heard you swear, cuss, moan about football, moan about your wife/girlfriend or behave "blokey" in fact you generally are smiling and if you look closely tonight or at any munch men generally do not smile. If I could give an example without naming names, some one we know used to behave at times as a foulmouthed ladette, her epithany came when she used a particularly unlady like word within earshot of Xena at Couch Club. Xena asked her to repeat it and she could not because to her it felt wrong. Since then her use of industrial language has stopped (at least within our earshot) I believe with herself she now feels more feminine Allan
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| 10 Dec 08, 9:12 AM DougDoug UK(L), 9 yrs |
Finds you feminine, oh and yeah you do smile alot. As for the comment about blokes not smiling, thinks that is true as well. Promise that I smile (if not feel free to pinch my bum and say smile you silly sod to me) Doug If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it is yours. If it does not, it was never meant to be. |
