Posted by Excalibur_1949 on Tue 18 Nov 08, 4:29 AM to Excalibur_1949's blog.
I awoke very early this morning, and at first was not sure of the time.
But as I sat drinking a cup of tea, the suddeness hit me that today was the anniversay of My elder brother's death.
My brother was 16 months older than I, and if I said we were close I would be lying, But he was still My brother.
I guess all of our lives we were at each other's throat for one reason or another. Some of this was sparked by our father, who intentionally pitted us against each other. He always said it was to make us survivors. But he made us much worse than that, he made us almost enemies.
I think the first time he tried to kill me I was 9 and he was 10. even as far back as then our fights were box office quality.
as we grew up it got worse, and on My the first day at Senior school, even before the bell sounded, we were fighting in the playground, and it took three teachers to pull Me off him.
Then later still a girl was brought to a party to meet him, but I got in first, and once again we were at each other's throats.
the older we got the worse it seemed to get, until he eventually got married and moved out of town.
for a good few years we totally ignored each other, not even exchanging birthday cards or Christmas cards.
then about 18 years ago, after I had moved back to Manchester, he suddenly appeared on My doorstep, asking if I could let him stay for a while. Apparently our mother had given him the address.
I don't know who was more surprised when I let him in, and gave him a bed for a while. then his girlfriend came up, and she, too stayed with us.
the quarrels of the past didnt re-appear, but I guess there was still a sort of tension floating just under the surface.
When his girlfriend got pregnant I helped him get in touch with the council, and they managed to get a flat some distance away, but rarely did we visit each other until his duaghter was born.
a couple of years later he and his family moved to Derby, where he lived until his death. I only saw him once after he moved, and that was at My mothers funeral.
As I said, we were not close, and didnt contact each other after My mother's death at all, and infact, it was a few months after he died that I found out.
and now, this is the third anniversary, and I sit here thinking about him, and for some strange reason, I do so in a brotherly way. long gone are the animosities we shared, the problems we created for each other.
Rest in peace Brother.
| 18 Nov 08, 5:20 AM MistressLuzie UK(CA), 5 yrs £  |
what an emotional piece. Makes one think about ones own family quarrels and that there is a time when they can not be solved anymore. Hope you make it through the day ok today, Ex. XXX Life is for living and websites are for annoying people www.mistress-luzie.co.uk |
| 18 Nov 08, 9:46 AM specialk_subbie UK(OL), 4 yrs    |
My thoughts are with you. xx I adore my Master, he is my rock. |
| 18 Nov 08, 10:46 AM cuddlybeth UK, 6 yrs |
thinking about you |
| 18 Nov 08, 1:22 PM taralee UK, 4 yrs |
huggs and kisses.xxx ........living life and loving it with master.............. |
