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| totallycoverme |
After being collared to MartRubberSwitch for a period, I am no longer collared
We both agreed to take the collar off as a result of a few key reasons:
*A substantial change in the circumstances of our nilla lives would make it massively difficult to commit to each other in such a way
*The geographical distance between the two of us makes it hard
*Some of our aims regarding the collar were a little different (but we recognised this as friends so there are no hard feelings)
I know a lotta people may read this and think that we took the collar off because we're both too lazy to commit...not true! We took the collar off because we care about each other as friends enough to appreciate that to remain collared would cause more difficulty than pleasure
I don't believe a collar should be taken lightly. It came off quicker than I would have liked perhaps. But I don't believe a friendship should be taken lightly either....and when it comes between friendship and bdsm, i'll take friendship any day of the week 
I thought I was passionately lesbian before i started playing with MartRubberSwitch. I was scared of men and thought they were all out to do really bad, predatory things to me. I think the fact that I'm now more questioning of my sexuality speaks volumes about the strong influence that MRS has had on me. In the grand scheme of things i would say that having him as my priniciple Dom for a good chunk of a year (my god that flew by)has been a great learning curve and right now, in the emotional state im in, id love to rewind and do a lot of it again.
im sad at the mome and a bit happy in some respects too...i wont take the time to reason that, i'll just say what im feeling and go with it as i've literally spoke to MRS within the last few hours (that hurt then coz i almost wanted to type "Sir" then)
so yeah, twas mutually agreed that the collar come off.
so yeah, we're not collared....not i've told you what MRS and I are not doing, I'll write about what we ARE doing
*We're still friends
*We would consider playing again in the future
I swear i've missed out some substantialities but my minds very heavy at the moment
so yeah, it'll be a few weeks of little to no play for me i reckon (own choice that one lol) while i recooperate emotionally
ermmm what else? lol
i look forward to returning to more scene based events when the rainclouds have cleared up a bit..it will be nice to attend and know who i am and what i'm about again
errr
my head really hurts here
thankyou MartRubberSwitch, thankyou for,
*Caring about me
*Teaching me stuff
*Having time and patience for me
*Having my best interests at heart, even if we disagreed over stuff a bit
*Being someone who will be a substantial chapter in my life history in terms of learning curve
*Getting to know me and allowing me the scope to get to know you
I know i know i know its not the end of an era, but i just want to give you a shout out and let you know that, collar or no collar, you're well special *hugs*
im gonna go now readers as my head feels sooo heavy, it's been a long day...i'm not going to lash....look forward to seeing people soon though....im comfort fooding it tonitgh me thinks..right on!
Sending all my loving vibes out to you *biiiiggggg hugs*
A sad Laura, but a Laura that can see a light at the end of this phase
love
xx
| 23 Nov 08, 7:33 PM rubberswitch UK(WF), 4 yrs  |
love you sugar m x x Mart_Rubber_Switch |
| 5 Dec 08, 11:45 PM MistressAnath UK(DN), 5 yrs £ |
Know you still have a friend in me and a welcome here hun {{{{{huggles}}}} x Go on....flame Me....it'll feel like home! |
