Missing Him.... (1)

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Posted by alexandraa on Sun 26 Oct 08, 8:47 PM

I'm missing him. Which is silly. He's out of the country. It's only been a couple of days and he's back tomorrow. With texts and phone calls too. But I'm still missing him. I live alone anyway. How can I miss him? But I do.

I imagine his voice in my ear. Smooth and gentle, that hint of laughter always there, the constant smile on his face carries through to the constant smile in his voice. It's always full of sex and teasing too. Calming and thrilling all in one go. I let go of all my worries and everyday concerns when I hear his voice. Such a rich full voice. Always so sensible and reliable. Rude and lewd. Loving and giving. I'm missing him. Sigh.

I want his arms around me. That's a sure thing, an ache and a need. I want to FEEL him hold me. Strong and sure in his ownership. Determined to have me. Some days I imagine I want to stay in bed for the whole time with just his arms around me. I'd get bored of course. But it's a nice fantasy. Is that what people fantasise about when they have a trigger around being caged? That feeling of being captured and held?

Is that what I like? The certainty? The absolute strength of purpose that he wants me? Needs to fuck me and possess me? Pound my body with his body, mark me, fill me, use me, have me and hold me. No inch given.

No inch withheld. I'd give him anything he wanted. Anything. Any fantasy, any desire, any need I can fulfil for him. It's his. Anything, absolutely anything. Good job he's not into cannibalism. He'd miss me then. You can only have someone once if that's your thing. I miss him.

I want to feel him take hold of me. I want his hands, canes, whips and body against me. Slamming into me. Allowing no uncertainty. I like that reassurance. I like the physical confirmation. I like sex too… so that's handy.

Is that the very essence of domination and submission?

That deep emotional need (that you so rarely allow yourself to recognise) to feel you belong to someone, reflected in the physical too. That need met emotionally, mentally, sexually and masochistically. So you feel in your heart, mind, flesh and skin that you are owned, controlled and held by someone. No inch given. None wanted.

I miss him.

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27 Oct 08, 5:45 PM
Dollface
UK, 3 yrs
Stunning, as always.
He's an incredibly lucky man.
xxx
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- Winston Churchill.


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