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Posted by Crystal_Eyes on Sat 18 Oct 08, 10:36 PM

Tags: Swansea (SA)

It's very sad when it's all gone. It's one of those things that once destroyed, you can't get back whether you want to or not. To be honest, I'm not sure that I even want to any more. What I had - what I thought I'd lost - wasn't worth even a fraction of what I once believed it was.

I can't be dealing with this. Lies, deception, 2-faced hypocritical cunts saying one thing to someone and something entirely contradictory to someone else. Backstabbing and secret alliances.

I fucking hate women sometimes. At least with men when they fall out, there's a punch in the face and then a pint. When women fall out it's never so simple. It affects their friends, their networks, their acquaintances. No one trusts anyone, and in the midst of all this you have the lying, manipulative little (or, not so little) cunts who are sleazing their way out of yet another fucking drama (that they fucking perpetuated in the first place!) by bullshitting all those around them.

Sometimes it makes me furious that they're getting away with habitually treating people so fucking horrifically. I've had enemies I wouldn't treat with such malice, poison, and disregard. Sometimes it makes me furious that those around them (who have bitched about in ways that would make even the hardest cunt wince!) are only too happy to suddenly be all pally-pally when it suits. It breeds mistrust and paranoia, and frankly I have better things to be doing than sitting here trying to work out who's friends with who and why, or whether people are lying either to me or to each-other (cos it's definitely one of them).

Real friends aren't afraid to stand up and be counted. Real friends aren't afraid to defend you when they hear you being attacked. Real friends aren't afraid to stand by your side in loyalty, even if it means having to tell another friend of theirs that their behaviour in this instance was totally despicable and absolutely fucking unforgivable.

Jesus H Christ, I thought I'd left this shit in the playground when I started secondary school.

</rant>

NB: Don't waste your time sniffing around me trying to find out what this is all about - if you don't already know then trust me, you really don't want to.

Edited Sat 18 Oct 08, 10:48 PM by Crystal_Eyes

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18 Oct 08, 10:50 PM
Jezzebelle
UK, 7 yrs
Funny (not haha) I don't know you but I do know exactly what you mean!
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18 Oct 08, 10:56 PM
Keeperofthewench
UK(EH), 3 yrs
Trust is a major issue for many people, when you have it you know you have to nurture it and care for it.
Only when you lose it do you feel the pain and anguish, I have often felt as though I have gone through a bereavement almost when I find my trust has been misplaced.
You will find others more deserving of your trust and your natural equilibrium will return.
Ross
Computer says No

18 Oct 08, 11:04 PM
fluffy_welsh_angel
UK(DN), 2 yrs I can identify with what you have said hon, and it stings like a bastard when you find out 'friends' are bitching behind your back
*hugs*
Mew

18 Oct 08, 11:05 PM
InfamousMrsG
UK(W), 2 yrs

Crystal_Eyes wrote:
<<snip>>
I fucking hate women sometimes. At least with men when they fall out, there's a punch in the face and then a pint. When women fall out it's never so simple. It affects their friends, their networks, their acquaintances. No one trusts anyone, and in the midst of all this you have the lying, manipulative little (or, not so little) cunts who are sleazing their way out of yet another fucking drama (that they fucking perpetuated in the first place!) by bullshitting all those around them.
Sometimes it makes me furious that they're getting away with habitually treating people so fucking horrifically. Real friends aren't afraid to stand up and be counted. Real friends aren't afraid to defend you when they hear you being attacked. Real friends aren't afraid to stand by your side in loyalty, even if it means having to tell another friend of theirs that their behaviour in this instance was totally despicable and absolutely fucking unforgivable.
<<end snip>>
I agree.
with the proviso that, in my experience, it's some women.
everything of the above is true .... and some.
but it's only some women
not all,
some of us have morals, some of us have honour. Some of us have respect.
and just remember those <<snip>> lying, manipulative little (or, not so little) cunts who are sleazing their way out of yet another fucking drama (that they fucking perpetuated in the first place!) by bullshitting all those around them <</snip>> will reap what they sow.
I promise you that.
cynical, but Karma'tastic Sarah
probibly editted for typoo's or to add Karma
Edited 18 Oct 08, 11:08 PM by InfamousMrsG

18 Oct 08, 11:11 PM
Pantagruel
UK(NW), 23 mths
Men are beasts, but women are demons.
Let's call
the whole thing
...
off.

18 Oct 08, 11:55 PM
JustBlue
UK(HP), 4 yrs

Pantagruel wrote:
Men are beasts, but women are demons.
Let's call
the whole thing
...
off.
Lol

19 Oct 08, 12:17 AM
Submissive1
UK(OX), 9 mths
I don't know you but know what you mean. This is why I only have a few good friends now, if I don't trust them they ain't my friend

19 Oct 08, 12:20 AM
BadWulf
UK(TA), 3 yrs
Y!
Trust must be earned always, never just given IMHO.
I hope you feel better soon crystal.
John
My, what sharp teeth I have.

19 Oct 08, 12:31 AM
Crystal_Eyes
UK(SA), 2 yrs

BadWulf wrote:
Trust must be earned always, never just given IMHO.
It was, over a period of 2 years. Sadly, it was just to the wrong people.
Thank you for the wishes, and thank you all for your comments. I was venting and shall probably hide this when I've calmed down.
(so, in about a decade, then... )
xxx
[edit: As a side note, upon re-reading this post I realised that I really must cut down my use of The Smiley. It's getting ridiculous]
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"Oh bother," said the borg. "We've assimilated Pooh..."
Edited 19 Oct 08, 12:36 AM by Crystal_Eyes

19 Oct 08, 9:17 AM
Painted
3 mths This is why I prefer male friends
Seriousness though, I am sorry for what you are going through. I have been through it myself more than once and it is always devastating to find out people you have trusted so much over such a long period time (for me, some had been life-long friends) could be so cruel and malicious. Women do seem to have more of a capacity for this!
I don't know you Crystal, but sending you a hug anyway! Chin up luv...many women may be backstabbing cunts, but many more are not. At least now you know, and you can start fresh with (hopefully) better quality women This is what I have had to do, and so far, so good!
edited for clarity and spelling! (not enough coffee in my veins yet)
Edited 19 Oct 08, 9:19 AM by Painted

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