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Falling off the fence... (2)
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Posted by nyet_009 on Mon 13 Oct 08, 3:26 PM
Tags: North London (N)
As some of you may know, I am recently back active within the lifestyle after a prolonged period of stagnation and soul searching. This change occured because some key close friends refused to allow me to sit on the fence and simply watch life pass me by. So with a profound kick to the arse , I found myself knocked off my perk and sprawled on the grass. After dusting away the indignation, I looked about and figured there was a life out there and i actually wanted to participate in it.
As some of you may also know, I am not new to the bdsm lifestyle, and have a relatively good concept of who i am and what i seek and where i am going.... at least i thought so up til this point.
A few experiences lately have profoundly left me thinking I am starting this journey all over again. Which is mind boggling, because it was one hell of a ride up to this point. Now i am not dumb enough to think i know it all. I dont and i think the day someone stops learning is the day they will cease to reap any enjoyment from life at all.
So i have a few questions...
Can a submissive reach a moment of rebirth that they view life in a very different way to what they did before and feel that lately all experiences equivacate to a new beginning? I kinda feel like a kid that has just been let loose in a candystore for the first time.
Does the reflection of the submissive you were 5 years ago bear any reflection on the submissive you are today? Is there a costant state of flux? And what remains constant. I guess i feel i will loose remants of the past if i hold on to tight to them.
Just some rambling thoughts... would love to hear your input
Thanksxx
nyet
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