Part 3 - I am in this position because.... (9)

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Posted by Katalena on Thu 11 Sep 08, 8:08 PM

I am in this position because food has always been the answer; it has almost controlled my life. Regardless of circumstances, feelings and emotions food has always been there – happy, sad, content, bored or upset food would be there, well of course it would but my inability to control food would be there too.

I am sure there are those people sitting there imagining me sitting, stuffing my face, secret eating and gorging on masses of sweets and crisps – I have never been like that.

Now I am well aware that everyone eats and some people just eat to live, because they have to, not because they enjoy it but it is a means to survive. Then there are those who love food and enjoy a healthy relationship with food and maintain a normal weight. There are those with eating disorders and there are those that are overweight who maintain they don't eat lots of the “wrong” foods and don't understand it, as well as many others but then there are people like me – I know that you can maintain a healthy weight and still enjoy those “extravagances” you like, I know that everything is ok in moderation, I know that to maintain a healthy body and enjoy a healthy relationship with food that a good balance of food intake and exercise is the key, I know that what goes in must come out and I know when I am doing all the things that mean I will gain weight but bugger me, I cannot walk that talk.

Food has an incredible hold over me, I don't know why and I find it so frustrating. I know there are those that will say I am talking crap and just stop doing what you are doing and you will see the changes – well yeah, I KNOW! If it was that easy I would have done so by now but then I guess for people that don't have this “problem” it is easier.

I know there are those of you reading this that know where I am coming from and will be able to relate to me and my situation – another reason why I am sharing this – I won't fail again as I will take on board all the helpful hints and tips people will provide and combine them with my want and will power to change my ways.

So, did something happen in my childhood to make me seek comfort in food?

To be continued...

Edited Thu 11 Sep 08, 8:11 PM by Katalena

Replies

11 Sep 08, 9:30 PM
Suadela
UK(M), 13 mths
Good luck, hope it all works out as you want it to
Some people say i am evil, i have no idea why they think that.

11 Sep 08, 10:17 PM
Giggle_Piggle
UK(WR), 2 yrs

I'm the same....if I'm upset I eat, if I'm happy I eat, if I'm bored I eat, whatever I'm up to I'm generally thinking about food. I don't know why I do it, i just always have and breaking the habits of a lifetime is never going to be easy. Good luck with the Rosemary stuff, I'll be asking for tips I'm sure x

11 Sep 08, 10:39 PM
Katalena
UK(GL), 20 mths
Y!

Giggle_Piggle wrote:
I'm the same....if I'm upset I eat, if I'm happy I eat, if I'm bored I eat, whatever I'm up to I'm generally thinking about food. I don't know why I do it, i just always have and breaking the habits of a lifetime is never going to be easy. Good luck with the Rosemary stuff, I'll be asking for tips I'm sure x
Thank you :o)
"You make your bed you lie in it? Crap, if you don't like it, get up and change the sheets"

11 Sep 08, 10:39 PM
quietsoul
UK(G), 3 yrs

when your mother says.. ohh your getting fatter, here have a biscuit!
There is no such thing as a brat ...... only a misunderstood angel. (only in my case)

11 Sep 08, 10:39 PM
Katalena
UK(GL), 20 mths
Y!

Miss_Evil_Mcqueen wrote:
Good luck, hope it all works out as you want it to
I will be keeping you posted how it goes! I figure that will help support me.
Thank you
Kat
"You make your bed you lie in it? Crap, if you don't like it, get up and change the sheets"

11 Sep 08, 10:44 PM
Katalena
UK(GL), 20 mths
Y!

quietsoul wrote:
when your mother says.. ohh your getting fatter, here have a biscuit!
Mine would never say the words "you're getting fatter" but she would say how she is concerned about my health or how she would hate for me to get older and wish i'd done it sooner - those sort of comments.
As I said I do adore her and we have a fabulous relationship but sometimes I do tell her that her comments are hurtful and don't help. She is always shocked as she never means to hurt. Again, she doesn't understand it - to her, you eat when you are hungry, you don't eat if you are upset or stressed and if you want to fit into a dress/skirt by Saturday then you will starve yourself all week and it will happen.
Kat
"You make your bed you lie in it? Crap, if you don't like it, get up and change the sheets"

11 Sep 08, 11:09 PM
quietsoul
UK(G), 3 yrs

sorry .. was refering to my 'mother'.
There is no such thing as a brat ...... only a misunderstood angel. (only in my case)

11 Sep 08, 11:21 PM
Katalena
UK(GL), 20 mths
Y!

quietsoul wrote:
sorry .. was refering to my 'mother'.
oh, I know ;o)
"You make your bed you lie in it? Crap, if you don't like it, get up and change the sheets"

12 Sep 08, 1:00 PM
Suadela
UK(M), 13 mths

Katalena wrote:

Miss_Evil_Mcqueen wrote:
Good luck, hope it all works out as you want it to
I will be keeping you posted how it goes! I figure that will help support me.
Thank you
Kat
Its ok your not the only one who's trying to loose weight, i have to drop a few stonne. Only problem you find is clothes dont seam to fit as you loose weight i keep having to find belts now to keep my jeans up lol
Some people say i am evil, i have no idea why they think that.


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