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Posted by Ravens_metalmiss on Fri 5 Sep 08, 11:58 PM

And then my fate will be sealed.. The end is nigh..

Tomorrow i am to be 'treated' to 168 of the cane.. Worked out at 7 puppy years for every year since to the great agony of my poor mother i came into the world. Just hope tomorrow i don't slip out of it amid the screams.. Maybe He forgot i'm just not a masochist.. Oh did i mention.. i HATE canes!

While i trust my Master with all that i am, i can't help the feeling that these nerves are entirely justified.. Given that, you see, it's been 7 years since i took what i would consider to be a reasonable caning.. And since have very much slid into the territory of 'wuss' on that front.. Hence i have begged for alternatives.. Any of the paddles.. The heavy flogger.. Perhaps even a little mercy that they might be entirely administered with the Singapore, not the straight dragon.. The response was not encouraging.. At the mention of the single tail i considered it much safer to just keep my mouth shut and endure whatever comes like a good little slut.. But as the hour draws closer the nerves are making this all the more difficult.

Of course He's enjoying watching me squirm, He always does.. Any reaction is a bonus with my Master, good, bad, i really can't win.. But what fun would it really be if i could?

My birthday, in general, is something i have developed a habit of dreading.. It's a day i like to keep as quiet as possible as i wait for it to inevitably come. It's not something i anticipate happily, or look forward to.. It's not that i'm hung up on getting older or that i'm some kind of manically depressed emo, i guess just bad experiences due to a poor choice in partners in the last couple of years left me with an aversion to that particular date on my calendar.

So i tried to avoid the subject as little as possible as this year went by in the hope it would be forgotten.. No such luck. Master has other plans.. And i've found over the last couple of days that the general foreboding feeling has lifted completely and i'm actually excited. It's going to be one of those days, where apart from spending some lovely time together, we're not doing anything.. So nothing can go wrong. He's put together the perfect day for me really..

Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie in the freezer.. Yummy things for tea, with of course the obligatory 'shrooms.. Envelopes from my family back home are waiting on the mantelpiece to be opened in the morning.. Then there's the beautiful little chocolate birthday cake He bought for me in town today.. i'm feeling truly spoiled, the little girl inside is jumping up and down with excitement..

At least she was until i took a moment to remember.. 168 of the cane..

xxx

Replies

6 Sep 08, 5:52 AM
Mistress_Amethyst
UK(CR), 2 yrs
Have a happy spanking Birthday....
oooopppps
Have a happy Caning...Birfday Girl
you deserve the Best...
xXAXx
~~If you don't like me it's your fault~~

6 Sep 08, 10:49 AM
Swiss_Toni
UK(S), 10 mths
I'd save the Ben & Jerry's 'til AFTER the caning, if I were you.... To sit on
Apc

6 Sep 08, 11:36 AM
Taintedinnocence
UK, 3 yrs

Happy Birthday
Ow - 168. I got caned hard for what I think was 20 of 20 days of something I hadn't done - it was rather painful and I started giggling hysterically when I was on about 4 or 5 and suffering when he said I was to go to 20. I think I'd have a nervous breakdown if he said 168. Still, I am quite a wuss Still, lets hope you enter ooober subspace and come out floating and happy


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