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| LadyEmmaCavendish |
I touched on this when I talked through my punishment schedule.
Since I never know what punishment failure of each task will incur I am keen to complete each task.
When I fail a task, or do not follow my Master's orders correctly I feel very disappointed in myself but very sorry that I have failed my Master. I hate being disciplined verbally. This is one of the worst things as I can hear my Master's disappointment in his tone. I feel stupid, small and inadequate. One time in particular I felt frustrated when I did not complete my weblogs in accordance with my Master's instructions. I let this frustration show in my voice and my Master was disappointed with me. I did not incur punishment - just feedback but I hate not being the perfect slave, letting myself down by inappropriate behaviour.
Other punishments I don't like in particular are the ones involving needles. They do not make me feel erotic in any shape or form. They simply remind me of my status.
I'm sure I'll be able to add to this short log in future...
Edited Fri 2 Jan 04, 5:54 PM by LadyEmmaCavendish
