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| LeatherKate |
Before I started in BDSM and began to develop a sense of what I was into and what I actually liked I always believed that my fantasy fairytale of being a slave was where I was going to end up. I didn't know anything about scening or 'play.' I had my heart set on it, it was something that I have been obsessed with for years but at the same time I didn't take any look outside of the small labelled box that I put myself into it. My heart knew which way we were going.
Up until recently I still fought with the idea of trying to make that image come true. Of course, I have many years to find out what I will finally settle into but for the moment I've somewhat calmed into the idea that It's okay to not be a slave, that it doesn't make me less of a person, nor weak, for the moment. Being submissive will always be inside of me, as will the desire to serve but these things take time. It took a long time for me to be okay with that idea and to be honest it's comforting to allow myself to breathe.
I discovered leather, something that I really didn't know exsisted until was introduced to it, and in fact lived it. I know for one that being a grrl, a leather grrl is a path that I'm comfortable with taking at this time in my life, a destination that I'm going to immensly enjoy finding my way too, with help If I'm lucky. Yes it was and is hard, yes there will be challenges along the way, yes it will be gruelling but I'm rejuvinated enough now to feel in this positive position, and happy enough to share it.
I don't want to put labels on myself, except of course that being a grrl isn't something that I have to try to do. I definately found in that label that I'm able to just be myself. Its a new journey and one that I'm extremly happy to be maintaining.
The person I most admire in the world led me to opening many doors that allowed me to truly look at myself through honest eyes and evaluate many aspects of myself, quite painfully at times. Even at times when I didn't want too. Through it all though, I have become in tune with myself more and developed so much, the lessons I have learnt are indeed priceless and not available in shops. 
I won't deny that it's been testing and almost fatal, but through it all I have seriously grown in a way that I always wished I would. I am becoming comfortable with me and reaching levels that I thought I'd never just through coming to settling conclusions about myself and the situations I'm involved within.
My friends, those whom I've come to treasure. Always alongside me despite my mistakes and trips, ready to hold out a hand and lift me to my feet. Those people that open their hearts to understand, forgive and teach. I am blessed in so many ways for the people that are in my life. Utterly blessed. I really wouldn't be where I am now, in my growth without you all.
Being a grrl for me is something that I cherish, not just for the connotations associated with it, but because I was led that way, with my hand held by somebody I love so much, respect so highly and admire so deeply, and always will.
So, I guess this is who I am. A learning leather grrl.
~smiles~
Edited Wed 30 Jul 08, 8:50 PM by LeatherKate
| 30 Jul 08, 9:05 PM Scribbles UK(RH), 4 yrs |
Lovely blog. But could you explain what a leather grrl is, and maybe what it is about it that appeals? [ETA maybe in the next blog!) I've found a bit about leather but not much. I don't see myself being one but I'm curious  Edited 30 Jul 08, 9:12 PM by Scribbles | |||
| 30 Jul 08, 9:13 PM LeatherKate UK(B), 4 yrs |
Let me think on that.
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| 30 Jul 08, 9:47 PM slutling_angel 4 yrs  |
Good luck hon.
Keep doing what you're doing and I am sure that life will get even more fruitful Most of all be comfortable with you and it sound like this is happening naturally xx
Kind Regards Psl Get you're rocks off on Planet Rock | |||
| 30 Jul 08, 9:51 PM LeatherKate UK(B), 4 yrs |
Thank you. Was nice to see you Sunday
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| 30 Jul 08, 10:08 PM slutling_angel 4 yrs |
Get you're rocks off on Planet Rock | |||
| 30 Jul 08, 10:10 PM LeatherKate UK(B), 4 yrs |
Thanks again.
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| 30 Jul 08, 10:47 PM DKLeather  UK(S), 11 yrs |
An excellent piece... well done katy. KINKFEST4 - DON'T MISS IT! | |||
| 30 Jul 08, 11:00 PM LeatherKate UK(B), 4 yrs |
Thank you Sir.
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| 31 Jul 08, 12:11 AM LeatherEagle UK(S), 7 yrs |
Good to read...~s~ If you have a mind to entertain Scribbles request, I would enjoy reading your own thoughts on what makes a leather grrl different. xxx "Fear is the ultimate sensation" | |||
| 31 Jul 08, 12:12 AM LeatherKate UK(B), 4 yrs |
~smiles brightly~
of course, Sir. I'd love too.
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