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It's a rare occasion, where i'm not craving sex or pain or degradation or control. I don't ache to be sub today.
I just want a cuddle 
I can't remember the last time anyone just held me and squeezed me in just the right way.
Where I could just relax in someone's arms and just let go.
Not a *do whatever you want to me* giving up control letting go. Just a vulnerable, softening, insight into me letting go.
It's been months.
Problem with me is I have a whole personal space issue going on and I just can't relax enough with most people. Their touch makes my skin crawl .
Even with the lovely people who don't invoke that reaction. I still don't relax, just stiffen awkwardly, hold back.
I ache today to feel that close comfort, to relax, to snuggle, to breath deeply into someone. *sigh*
| 9 Jul 08, 10:01 AM Raegan 5 yrs |
~Hugs~ I hope things feel better soon xx I don't care who you are... I'm not giving you my spoons. |
| 9 Jul 08, 11:31 AM shy_sarah UK(M), 4 yrs |
Aww sugar, I send you some lovely *cuddles* I know exactly what you mean, the craving for affection doesn't bother me too often, but when it does it's just as strong as any 'sub fever'.
You could ask a friend (nilla or otherwise) to be your cuddle-buddy? Like a fuck-buddy but more socially acceptable Compliance for fun? Hell yes. |
