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I could scream,
I feel it coiled in the back of my throat, just waiting for release.
I feel on the edge of frenzy. Almost frantic.
I want someone to beat the hell out of me, to let out this chained up deviant.
All week i've been wanton and lustful, but kept frustated, and I have enjoyed more than usual, that lack of release, that little mind fuck.
Now the time of month has dampened my desire. It has given way to a feeling much worse and I am filled with a wanting that has been slowly building for weeks.
A need now in full bloom.
Not just for pain or degradation or control, but for it all, all that I can get, all that I can take.
To be used and destroyed a little. To be lost in my submission. To feel cherished in that twisted embrace.
Its like I'm full of all this energy that can't get out.
Submissive energy.
I can't keep still, can't relax, can't stop thinking about wanting to serve. Often on the edge of tears, often plotting reckless random acts.
God this ache is hurting me.
These are the times when I feel like a junkie.
Hooked.
Edited Fri 13 Jun 08, 6:59 PM by poutanaki
