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Garysmoggie
Posted by Garysmoggie on Wed 30 Apr 08, 8:39 PM

hello all, those of you on my network will know I am a whinging pain in the arse of late! not the normal state of things just things are not going well, I must add I am greatul for everyone's time and patience. well this morning got a phone call from the ex telling her mother was about to die, she passed away at 9.45 this morning jaundiced and riddled with cancer so bad it had gone through her entire body. and this afternoon I go to work get told I am falsifying figures and sacked, couple that with the breakdown of my marriage and two overdoses in the last two years and I am wondering what is the point.

sorry to put a downer on everyone but getting this off my chest has helped me, I also promise all I won't do anything stupid.

thanks for reading this depressive ramble just need to unload it.

good thoughts to all

Gary

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30 Apr 08, 8:47 PM
Crystal_Eyes
UK(SA), 2 yrs
When you hit rock bottom, there's only one way left to go.
Things will get easier - take each day at a time. Try and put a lid on today, get an early night, and know that tomorrow will be a little brighter. x
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"Oh bother," said the borg. "We've assimilated Pooh..."
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30 Apr 08, 9:01 PM
XwillingsubX
UK, 12 mths

IMO the above reply is pure cliched clap trap - no offense - Gary please get some immediate support and listening ears fr good friends,appropriate authorities etc - theres another cliche , the final straw that broke the camels back
hug
Kate

30 Apr 08, 9:03 PM
Jezzebelle
UK, 7 yrs

Garysmoggie wrote:
hello all, those of you on my network will know I am a whinging pain in the arse of late! not the normal state of things just things are not going well, I must add I am greatul for everyone's time and patience. well this morning got a phone call from the ex telling her mother was about to die, she passed away at 9.45 this morning jaundiced and riddled with cancer so bad it had gone through her entire body. and this afternoon I go to work get told I am falsifying figures and sacked, couple that with the breakdown of my marriage and two overdoses in the last two years and I am wondering what is the point.
sorry to put a downer on everyone but getting this off my chest has helped me, I also promise all I won't do anything stupid.
thanks for reading this depressive ramble just need to unload it.
good thoughts to all
Gary
Break it down...
Your ex's mother is now at peace, the family can 'relax' and grieve.
Talk to CAB about your dismissal, they may have some constructive advice.
One day you will be glad the overdoses failed, as one who attempted suicide more than once because of feeling there was nothing more at 45 is more than happy that her efforts at a younger age failed.
Take things one step at a time and if your head won't let you see a Dr and see if there are any meds that can help.
I hope things improve in the not too distant future.
Jx

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30 Apr 08, 9:08 PM
Nemi75
UK, 12 mths

Hugs Gary, big huge fat hugs.
I know it's not much but you're in my thoughts.
One of God's own prototypes, a high powered mutant of some kind, never considered for mass production. Too weird to live, too rare to die.

30 Apr 08, 9:09 PM
Crystal_Eyes
UK(SA), 2 yrs

XwillingsubX wrote:
IMO the above reply is pure cliched clap trap - no offense -
Bullshit. If you didn't mean any offence you wouldn't have said it.
Take if from someone who's been there; sometimes the hope that tomorrow *might* be better is all you fucking have.
Have your tuppence worth by all means, but don't you dare tell me i don't know what i'm talking about, or slate me for trying to bring the guy some hope.
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"Oh bother," said the borg. "We've assimilated Pooh..."
Official member of the Pants on Head club

30 Apr 08, 9:24 PM
Garysmoggie
UK(TS), 17 mths
Y!
thanks all for the supportive responses, will make an appointment with my regional union rep and my g.p. tomorrow, fully intend to fight back for everyones sake just cannot see a way forward today thats all.

I think therefore I am

30 Apr 08, 9:24 PM
Saxifragerussell
UK(DH), 13 mths
You just hang in there mate. Really sorry to hear all of these things are happening to you.
Honestly it will get better. If you need someone to chat to let me know, just remember that you have plenty of friends up here who think a hell of a lot about you ok!
Take care mate.
S.
It doesn't take a rocket scientist to be a rocket scientist...

30 Apr 08, 9:25 PM
just_boy
UK, 12 mths

Hugs man. Don't know what else to say. There a people around here if you need to talk/get out.
J_B
I'll tell you this man, All i wanna do is have my kicks before this whole shithouse goes up in FLAMES!

30 Apr 08, 9:50 PM
male2shemaid
UK(SA), 18 mths

Garysmoggie wrote:
hello all, those of you on my network will know I am a whinging pain in the arse of late! not the normal state of things just things are not going well, I must add I am greatul for everyone's time and patience. well this morning got a phone call from the ex telling her mother was about to die, she passed away at 9.45 this morning jaundiced and riddled with cancer so bad it had gone through her entire body. and this afternoon I go to work get told I am falsifying figures and sacked, couple that with the breakdown of my marriage and two overdoses in the last two years and I am wondering what is the point.
sorry to put a downer on everyone but getting this off my chest has helped me, I also promise all I won't do anything stupid.
thanks for reading this depressive ramble just need to unload it.
good thoughts to all
Gary
I am so sorry to hear what has happened to you today Gary. I wish I had the right words to say or be able to wave a magic wand and put everything right. Just know that I care and I am here to help in any way I can.
I don't know if you are a Spiritual person but you and your loved ones will be in my thoughts and prayers. We all need help at times like this so take advantage of your friends and loved ones to give you support. You always have the community here also and don't hesitate to make use of us. Talking is so important at these times. Hugging is too - if you have someone close don't be afraid to ask for a hug from them or for you yourself to give that hug. Your Ex probably is going to need a hug and a great deal of emotional support from you at this time. Whatever has gone on between you before don't let this stop you from being there for her now. Likewise, she can be there for you.
I think Jezzebelle's advice was excellent and you should certainly consider what she has said. Break what has happened today down into their component parts as I think it is important to separate them. As gut-wrenching as a job loss is it simply does not compare with the loss of a loved one, especially a parent. Sit down and think long and hard about the job and write down a list of why you were too good for them, why they undervalued you, what tossers the people you worked for were and why you are going to go out and get something better. It is quite possible that in a few months or years you will be looking back on this day not as the worst day in your life but as the turning point when everything turned around and you went onwards and upwards to brighter and better things.
I would seriously consider going to see your GP tomorrow though. In fact, don't consider it - just go tomorrow!
Go now before the bank holiday weekend. These days GPs have a great deal of help that they can offer you at this time. Many practices have access to Counsellors who know how to deal with anxiety and depression as a result of breavement, of divorce, from losing a job. Despite what many people think medication is often used as a last resort at times like this and counselling, talking, cognitive behaviour theraphy is often the first option. Counselling DOES work.
In saying that your GP might think you have been through the mill and offer you something short-term for the anxiety such as Oxazepam or even one of the new class of SSRIs such as Eflexor. There is no shame and no harm in having medication at this time. If you are going through Hell you have to keep going and modern anxiety medication can and does help tens of thousands of people each year get through times such as these.
You are in my thoughts Gary.
Edited 30 Apr 08, 9:53 PM by male2shemaid

30 Apr 08, 11:28 PM
XwillingsubX
UK, 12 mths

Please Let us know how you are tomorrow Gary ?- Take care mate
Kate x

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