Posted by janiya
on Sun 9 Mar 08, 6:35 PM to janiya's blog.
someone you love die infront of you.
There's a reality that has hit hard this weekend, that i can not escape from. I never thought in my worst nightmare that i would ever sit and watch life leaving a person. When i laid with Thomas i disliked the harshness of the ventilator expanding his lungs. It was too mechanical for someone who breathed so calmly and softly.
I believe that he 'died' early that Saturday morning, probably not so long after that single tear ran down his cheek as i spoke to him, however the exact time of death was much later that day. I disliked the way his body changed due to the trauma that he experienced. I had a vivid, disturbing image, that i wished i hadn't seen. It will haunt me for some time to tell.
I have just one question i need him to answer for me... i need to know that it is OK...
Edited Sun 9 Mar 08, 6:47 PM by janiya
| 9 Mar 08, 8:36 PM just_iana UK(SS), 6 yrs  |
just a hug for you..i know it was beyond you worst nightmare, but i hope time will give you comfort in that Thomas wasn't on his own...
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