Posted by melody_A
on Thu 11 Nov 04, 5:22 PM to melody_A's blog.
How can you go from a fantastic high to a horrible low in such a short amount of time?
Firstly, I'd like to say thanks to all those who send me lovely emails after my last log. I really appreciate it when people, especially those I've never had the chance me to meet, take time out to pen you a few kind words.
Things were looking up for a few days, sister seemed a lot better and checked herself out of hospital. Only to be back within 24 hours after slashing her wrists and being sectioned. She really meant it this time.
Why would my very own sister want to kill herself? She's my own flesh and blood and I can't make it better – why would, after only 26 years on this planet, you want to give up? What can I do to make it better? How can I stop the terrible hurting mum is going through? What bloody use I am to anyone at all, being here, living the dream 300 miles away?
I got home from college yesterday very tired and upset only to row with Master within minutes of coming through the door.
Having a horrible week, although we 'sorted' it and we've both apologised to each other – it just doesn't seem right. I can't even make Master happy at the moment; I'm so tired and emotional.
If I could have my miracle right now, I'd wave my magic wand and make all those I love so incredibly happy.
Only I can't – and because if that I'm feeling useless.
M
Edited Thu 11 Nov 04, 5:23 PM by melody_A
