Posted by melody_A
on Mon 5 Jul 04, 12:43 PM to melody_A's blog.
Oh what a lovely tingle on my bottom.
Although it felt far from lovely this morning. Most of the time Master warms me up and when the pain of the cane comes I'm also feeling intense pleasure and satisfaction. But sometimes he just wants to use and abuse me. Wants to test my submission when I'm not really in the mood. He is at his most cruel and turned on then - and this morning was one of them.
It doesn't usually take long for me to come down from the pain to orgasm. Sometimes it's so soon it's almost as if the pain was the very beginning, but today was different. I took a long time to come down and when I did finally orgasm it was lovely gentle and so intimate.
Suffering with massive insecurities at the moment. Can't get rid of this wretched feeling I'm just not good enough for Master. I'm definitely a High Maintenance sort of girl. Not with money, in fact I think I'm doing amazingly well since I stopped working. Haven't bankrupted Master..... yet! No, with me it's an emotional thing. I know everyone has baggage and history, but I can't help feeling I'm not pretty/clever/posh enough. That Master is taking second best with me.
Goodness, how did this weblog turn from a lovely account of this morning to a whinge? Stop it now! I hate feeling sorry for myself. Especially when I've nothing to moan about.
Ok my squirrel name is "Bushy Dances with Chipmunks"
Bushy? Me? I think not!
Mel x
Edited Mon 5 Jul 04, 12:45 PM by melody_A
