Posted by melody_A
on Thu 10 Jun 04, 4:46 PM to melody_A's blog.
I've got a new rule, well a requirement.
Actually it's probably the only requirement I have. Couldn't really add anything to the 'contracts' debate, don't have one and never felt the need - to us a relationship needs to grow and develop. In fact the need for a contract has never even been discussed between us. Not knocking anyone who has one, but it really does seems crazy that 'contracts' are being drawn up between people who have never even met. Still I know of many a happy hour being spent by some drawing up a contract with a person they wouldn't recognise in the street tomorrow. Anyway I think I've made my point - not a contract type of girl!
Opps... off on a tangent. Why did I start this? Oh yes my new 'requirement'. Well every evening and every morning whilst in bed with Master I have to ask him to whip me. Now the evenings are not much of a problem, I'm generally in the mood and quite up for it anyway. It's the mornings I'm struggling with. The alarm goes off and I'm fighting for another ten seconds sleep, I'm tired and the last thing in the world I'd like right then is a whipping. I'm not saying Master carries out the whipping - but I have to 'offer myself' to him.
Now I know that compared to some I have it easy. I don't have to get up and make his breakfast; I don't have chores or curfews. I don't have rituals or ask permission to eat or pee. Master provides me with all the freedom I'd want, so what he's asking is tiny yet so bloody hard.
I said it this morning, but not at all yesterday. He's suggesting 'punishments' if I can't get the hang of it - so I'd better learn pretty damn quick!
Yeah I know - I'm pathetic.
Mel x
Edited Thu 10 Jun 04, 4:48 PM by melody_A
